Title: The One Where I Finally
Write A Sequel Author:
Pairing: CarTrick, Lambs Part: 1/1 Sequel To: The One With The View Of The City Series: "The One" Series Rating: NC-17 Disclaimer: Fiction for
entertainment purposes, not to be taken as truth. Warnings: Slash Warning. AU
Warning. Bi Groupal Warning Notes: So many people asked for
a sequel to this story and I love my lambs! So I figured why not.
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Chris hadn’t intended on being late to work. He’d set Nick's alarm,
giving him more than enough time to shower, dress and get to the bar.
But then Nick woke up with him, decided to join Chris in the shower and
from there, they both lost track of time. In his defense, Chris was
only 45 minutes late, it could have been worse. Had Nick gotten his
way, Chris would still be on his back, getting his dick sucked.
Again.
The entire ride up to the fifty first floor, Chris tried to wipe the
freshly fucked glow from his skin, not to mention the big toothy grin
from his lips. So not happening. He knew that he was in shit the second
he stepped into Panorama and saw Lance behind the bar, a grimace on his
face, eyes slanted and shooting daggers, aimed to kill. They still
weren’t officially opened, but Lance looked ready to explode.
"Where the fuck have you been?"
Chris’ blood froze at the anger in Lance’s voice. He knew to proceed
with caution.
"Sorry, was running late. I got detained." Chris fought not to let
Lance upset his wonderful mood. He knew how stressed his boss had been
lately, with the bar and the financial side of things. And his
continual cat and mouse games with Justin were only adding to Lance’s
frustration.
"Fuck your boyfriend on your own time," Lance bit out angrily. Chris’
eyes narrowed.
"Technically, I did." Chris pointed out coolly. He was not going to be
bullied by the younger man and stood his ground. The two men glared at
each other until Lance finally relented. He took a deep breath,
massaged his temples and raised one hand in the air. Without saying a
word, he shook his head and walked away, leaving Chris to stand in
silence.
Chris knew this wasn’t over. Lance would go to his office, brood bout
whatever was stressing him out this time and then come back to
apologize. Chris took his place behind the bar and started to do his
stock up. Lance had done most of it, leaving him only the last few
things to do. They opened in fifteen minutes, which would give Chris
more than enough time to do what he had to do. Thankfully, they often
didn’t get customers for at least a half an hour after they opened.
Chris nodded at Anna, the hostess that opened with him and headed to
the back for the last of his juice.
It was nearly an hour later when Lance emerged. Chris expected the
younger man to approach him so they could talk about whatever was
bothering him. He was stunned when Lance didn’t. Instead, he occupied a
table in the corner, ordered himself a salad and a beer and buried
himself in his books. His posture clearly indicated his desire to be
left alone. Chris granted him that luxury.
He was going to let Lance brood in the corner by himself. Lance would
talk when he was ready, which would only make the conversation that
much easier. If Chris pushed, Lance would be on the defensive. He had
to wait until the younger man was ready to open up to him. There was a
point in the night when Chris saw Lance staring at him. When Chris
tried to give him a smile to say that they were cool, Lance simply
stared at him with an expressionless face and went straight back to
business, as if he hadn’t even seen him.
"What crawled up Lance’s ass and died?" Christina asked with a sneer.
Her boss had yet again snapped at her for not refilling his drink fast
enough. It was the third time he’d yelled at her in less than an hour.
"Don’t know sweetie," Chris shrugged, pouring Lance’s Heineken.
"Well, he just said that if I don’t get my shit in gear, he’s going to
find another waitress competent enough to do my job."
Chris’ jaw dropped. Never once had Lance ever spoke to any of them like
that, and he was starting to worry about him. He didn’t need to ask if
Christina was serious, he could tell by her facial expression that she
was.
"Watch the bar for a second," Chris said, face full of determination.
He removed his apron and approached Lance. As soon as he approached the
table, Lance spoke.
"What?"
"Want to tell me what’s wrong?"
"You’re not at the bar, that’s what’s wrong." Lance’s eyes were hard,
his tone of voice harder. "I don’t pay you to ..."
"Fuck my boyfriend. I got that one already. Loud and fucking clear."
Lance looked up and glared at Chris. Chris glared back.
"I as going to say that I don’t pay you to meddle in shit that isn’t
your business. So fuck off."
"You firing Chrissy is my business," Chris said, unimpressed. He raised
an eyebrow and dared Lance to respond.
Lance only sighed and rolled his eyes. He was too angry to deal with
their theatrics tonight. "I wasn’t serious." Like he had to state that
point. He hadn’t fired anyone ever before and he wasn’t about to start.
"She seemed to think you were."
Lance rubbed his eyes and fought to keep his temper in control. He
looked at Chris as if Chris were a small child and spoke with a very
condescending voice. "It was a warning. I didn’t fire her."
"One more warning like that," Chris said, his voice equally as
condescending, "and you won’t have to fire her. She’ll quit." He paused
for a second. "Just a warning for you."
Lance opened his mouth to speak but no sound came out. He took a deep
breath and averted his eyes to the scenery, wishing that he was
anywhere but right there that minute. As if fate was trying to torture
him, Lance heard the elevator sound and two familiar faces appeared at
the door. His mood worsened instantly. His face contorted to a mask of
disgust and he stood up abruptly, startling Chris. Without a word, he
headed through the restaurant towards the back, to his office.
Chris stood at the table in shock. By the time he got to the bar, Nick
and Justin were waiting for him, each perched on a stool. He blushed as
he saw the look on Nick’s face, his groin tightened instantly. It was
an expression of an innocent boy mixed with seductive temptation.
Chris’ mind reverted back to earlier that afternoon, waking up to find
Nick looking down at him, leisurely stroking his erection, waiting for
him to wake up.
Instead of gawking at Nick, Chris smiled at Justin, who wasn’t smiling
at all. "How have you been?"
Justin shrugged, the frown intensifying. "Busy. Screwed up."
Distracted, he looked to where Lance had just stormed off and
disappeared. "Is he coming back out?"
Chris gave a shrug. "He’s in a ripe mood tonight. Can’t for the life of
me figure it out. It’s been tense for the past few weeks, but tonight
seems to be worse than ever."
Justin groaned inwardly. He knew exactly why Lance was in a bad mood.
It had to do with him and the fact that although he had promised to
call the other man, two weeks had gone by without him doing so. He had
been so caught up with work, that he kept putting it off and putting it
off. And when Lance finally phoned him for a date, he had been forced
to decline because of previously made plans.
Lance hadn’t been too impressed. They had endured a very awkward
conversation with Lance claiming that he was too old for this shit and
for Justin to call when he knew what he wanted. For real.
That conversation had taken place two days ago. Justin had felt like
shit since then and clearly, so had Lance. All he could think about was
Lance and the huge mistake he was making in screwing around with his
emotions. And patience. He knew that he wanted Lance, there shouldn’t
have been a problem. Except that Justin was practiced in screwing up
relationships, especially ones that had the potential of something
unbelievable and amazing.
Nick glared at his brother, a knowing expression decorated his face.
"What have you done?"
"What?" Justin squeaked, his cheeks turned pink. "I ...don’t ..."
Nick raised his eyebrows daring his brother to refute his suspicions.
"What did you do? Or didn’t do?" He knew his brother well, and how he
tended to get in relationships. As much as he loved the younger man, he
equally as much wanted to throttle him sometimes.
Chris saw the exchange between Nick and Justin and shook his head.
"Nah, it’s probably just..."
"Something to do with Justin," Nick insisted. He was sure of it. And
the fact that Justin hadn’t refuted his claims only verified his
suspicions. "You ass."
Justin looked up to see Chris glaring at him now. He wasn’t afraid of
Nick, he knew that Nick would never do him bodily harm. Chris though,
he wasn’t so sure of that. Chris had given Justin fair warning one
night when the three of them were hanging out at Nick’s apartment.
There were rules to dating Lance. Well, one rule. But it was a big one.
No games.
No games meant no bull shit.
If Justin wasn’t serious, he should make it known immediately. Justin
had assured first Chris, then Lance, that he hated games too.
Yet he was stringing Lance around. Playing with him. It didn’t mater
that it wasn’t intentional. He was still doing it. Chris had also
warned Justin of what would happen if he hurt Lance. Instinctively,
Justin’s hand went to his groin and he cupped himself protectively.
Chris nodded, facial expression deadly serious. Justin winced.
They understood each other perfectly.
"J ...what.." Nick started to ask. He stopped when Chris raised his
hand, halting him. They shared a look until Nick relented, sighing.
"Fine."
"Thank you," Chris whispered. Much to Justin’s distaste, they shared a
kiss. Chills race up Chris’ spine as Nick’s tongue lapped at his lips.
They pulled away at the sound of Lance growling behind them. Chris
turned around, Lance was ready to kill.
Their eyes met in a cold, hard stare.
"You planning on firing me?"
Lance paused, a look of shock crossed his features. He shook his head.
"No."
"Need something?"
Lance ignored Justin’s presence. He was hurt. Confused. Lonely. Justin
promised that he was interested in him, in a ‘them’. His actions spoke
otherwise. He was stupid to believe that someone as beautiful as Justin
would want him. That Justin had been sincere. Seeing how happy Chris
and Nick were, only made it sting more.
Despite how happy he was for his friend, he loathed him just as much.
Lance wanted that, he wanted that with Justin.
"I need your order in by noon on Thursday this week. I forgot to tell
you. Long weekend, no delivery Monday. Vince said if I get it to him
Thursday afternoon, he’ll deliver it on Friday."
On long weekends, they were always busy. Chris nodded, he could give
Lance the order right now. He always knew exactly what they had in
stock and what they needed. He only nodded.
Nick’s eyes flickered between Justin and Lance. Finally he met Chris’
gaze. A look of frustration passed between them.
"Okay. That’s it then. Can you ...?" Lance started to ask.
"Of course." Chris answered. He knew exactly what Lance was asking. He
had just spent the past few hours doing the paperwork for the night and
was in no position to be there. It would only worsen his already crappy
mood, and put the rest of the staff in an equally horrible frame of
mind. Lance was leaving Chris in charge to close up the bar that night.
"Thanks." Without a glance back, Lance walked towards the door and hit
the button for the elevator. It had been waiting, no one had come up
since Justin and Nick. Lance stepped in, leaving two shocked brothers
in his wake.
"He fucking go already?" Christina asked, reading Justin and Nick’s
minds.
Chris nodded. Christina sighed in relief.
"Good, about fucking time."
"He left?" Justin asked in shock. "Like, went home for the night?" His
stomach fell at the apologetic expression on Chris’ face.
"Sorry. Yeah."
"Shit." Nick whispered under his breath. An air of awkwardness fell
over them. Christina approached with another round of drinks for Chris
to make. The elevator sounded and Justin turned, in hopes that it was
Lance coming back to talk to him.
Unfortunately, it was not. It was a rather large party of guests, at
least ten by Chris’ initial count.
Chris flashed Nick an apologetic smile. The blonde shook his head and
gave Chris a wink. He and Justin were going to take their usual table
so Chris could focus on making drinks. Nick had a few words for his
brother anyways. When they sat down, Nick took a deep breath. He saw
the sadness etched on Justin’s face and everything he had intended to
say was lost on the tip of his tongue.
"What’s going on?" He finally asked. Justin winced.
"I fucked up."
"Duh. Why? How? WHY?" Nick was just as upset on Justin’s behalf as he
was Lance’s. For the first time Nick actually approved of his brother’s
choice for a boyfriend. His taste in men usually left him lonely,
heartbroken and depressed. Finally Justin had found someone decent and
he was letting him get away. Nick needed to know why.
Justin flinched. He knew that if he told Nick, he would give him ‘that
look’ and after the way Lance had looked at him, Justin wasn’t sure he
could handle it. Not from Nick too. The glare Chris was giving him was
already pressing his limit.
"He’s so nice and sweet. And I can talk to him on the phone for hours
without realizing it. He’s so great Nicky..."
"And you’re not used to that?!"
Justin shook his head. He wasn’t used to it. And he wasn’t sure if he
wanted to get used to it, because if ...when ...if Lance took it away,
it would crush him. He had never been so scared in his entire life.
Lance was everything Justin had ever wanted in a partner, a lover and
just faced with the possibility of perfection was enough to terrify him.
"And work..."
Nick raised an eyebrow. "You work too god damned much." He had been
telling his brother that for years. Since high school. Justin was
focused and driven, and although it was something Nick respected about
his younger brother, it was time for Justin to start focusing on
himself. Living for himself.
"I know."
Nick hadn’t expected him to agree so quickly. And genuinely. There was
more that he wasn’t telling him. Nick didn’t have to wait long for his
admission.
"I’m getting an assistant."
Nothing could have shocked Nick more. Justin anticipated that reaction
and chuckled. The firm he worked for had been telling him to get an
assistant for over a year now. He had worked for them since his second
year of university. First doing grunt work and then as a junior
researcher for the Creative Department. Now, four years later, he was
head of the department. Every other Associate on his level had an
assistant, some had two. Yet Justin had always maintained that he
didn’t need one. He was a hands on type of person and liked to be busy.
Ten to twelve hour days didn’t bother him, he never really had any
reason for an assistant. Until now.
They had begun the process two days earlier. The list had been long,
interviews fifteen minutes in length. It wouldn’t take longer than that
for Justin to know. They still hadn’t found him or her, but Justin was
confident that they would. And when they did, it would make everything
easier.
"It’s time."
"Long overdue," Nick argued.
"I know," Justin growled. Nick visibly backed off. "We made plans. I
canceled. Then I canceled for the rain check."
"You’re going to have to fix this," Nick instructed kindly. From what
Chris had said, Lance was all turned out over Justin. Chris had never
seen Lance so interested in anything, except money. That said a lot.
"He won’t talk to me," Justin groaned as he rest his head on the table.
The sound of Christina putting a cup beside his head startled him.
"From Chris, says it looks like you need it."
Justin raised an eyebrow. Christina snickered.
"It’s safe."
"What’s it called? A ball breaker?"
Nick couldn’t contain his laughter. He laughed loudly as he looked at
his boyfriend and winked. Christina shook her head.
"Heart therapy," she said. "He says that it looks like you need some."
Nick’s features softened and Chris blushed. Christina must have just
told them the name of his new drink. Almost immediately Nick was up and
coming towards the bar.
"I love you so fucking much." Their mouths met in a steamy, erotic kiss
from across the bar. Yet again, Nick was hit with just how lucky he was
to have found Chris.
Justin’s attention was diverted from the view of Toronto by Chris’
shrill laughter.
"Ball breaker ...that’s hilarious."
Justin blushed. He wished Lance was there and that there wasn’t this
awkwardness between them. They could sit in the corner and talk. And
cuddle. And kiss. And just BE together. His heart throbbed painfully.
With a single gulp he downed Chris’ drink. Throwing a fifty down, he
slipped into his jacket.
"Nicky, I’m out." When Nick didn’t answer, Justin tried again. "CARTER!"
Nick looked up.
"I’m out," Justin repeated himself. He didn’t want company. Nick nodded
and frowned. Justin would get a phone call first thing in the morning.
They weren’t done talking.
"Carter?" Christina asked. Nick looked at her. Justin stopped in his
tracks. Their eyes met and Justin joined them at the bar.
"Yeah."
"That’s your name? Nick Carter?"
Nick flashed Chris a strange look. "Yeah. Why?"
"Justin Carter?" Christina wrinkled her nose. It didn’t sound right.
Nick laughed as he shook his head. "He’s not a Carter." Christina
looked at Justin who shook his head as well.
"But he’s your brother? Right?"
Nick flashed Chris a pleading look. He hated having to explain it over
and over again, especially because he wasn’t sure how people would
react to it. Chris patted his hand. When Justin hadn’t jumped in to
tell the story, Chris did.
"Nick’s mom was married very briefly. She was pregnant and when she was
about six months along..." He paused and Nick shook his head.
"Five."
"...five months along, her husband was killed in an accident."
Just as Nick expected, Christina gasped and put her hand to her chest.
"Oh my goodness."
"Well," Chris said, continuing the story. "...she had Nick and her best
friend at the time, well he was both hers and her husband’s best friend
really. Well he helped her through the loss of her husband and the
birth of her first child. She gave Nick his birth father’s last name.
Over time, she and Paul fell in love and they got married. She then had
Justin and the rest of the kids."
"He’s the only father I’ve ever known. Her last name is legally
Carter-Timberlake. But I go by Carter, Justin and the boys go by
Timberlake. It’s a headache, especially when I was in school." Nick
added.
Christina blinked. "Wow."
"Yeah." Nick shrugged. It was his life, it stopped being interesting
years ago. He watched as Christina's eyes narrowed and she turned to
glare at Justin.
"You’re going to fix him, right?"
"Chrissy," Chris warned. She turned her glare onto him and he shrank
back. "I’m just sayin’," he mumbled under his breath.
Justin held his hands up in surrender.
"I’M just sayin’," She asked, repeating after Chris. "He was fine. A
little anal, needed to get laid, but fine. Rational."
Nick raised his eyes in question. Chris finished making a few drinks
and sighed. "He threatened to fire her tonight."
Justin’s eye widened in surprise and he felt shame fill him. "Oh god."
"He wasn’t serious. He wouldn’t fire me, but he’s never even come close
to hinting at it. So ..." Christina leaned in close, glaring at Justin
menacingly. "FIX HIM."
"I didn’t mean ..." Justin groaned. He looked up and was surprised to
see compassion in their eyes. It was veiled behind warning, but still,
it was there. "I will if he’ll let me."
Chris and Christina exchanged glances before swirling and nodding
enthusiastically.
"You’re going to have to work for it, but.." Christina loaded up her
tray with the fresh martinis that had just been made for her. "If
you’re serious, he’ll let you."
"Well," Nick said coyly. He snuck behind the bar and pulled Chris into
the small cove that hid them from the customers. "...we’re going to
head out now. How much do I owe?"
Chris shivered as Nick’s breath fanned across his desk. "Taken care of."
Nick’s lips curled into a grin. He pressed Chris tighter against the
wall with his body. Both men shivered this time. "Come on over
tonight." Chris didn’t hesitate in nodding. Their mouths came together
in an erotic kiss.
"I’ll be late," Chris warned. "I’ve got to close up."
"Don’t care," Nick mumbled against his mouth. "Just want you in my bed.
I’ll be waiting."
Chris melted. Nick grabbed his groin playfully and smirked as Chris
whimpered. "You’re horrible," Chris complained as he adjusted himself.
Nick shrugged. "You weren’t screaming that earlier." It was Chris’ turn
to glare as Justin and Christina laughed.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Lance pinched the bridge of his nose. His blackberry sounded alerting
him to a new message. His fourth in an hour. Justin. Again.
Ten days had passed since the night that he had left the bar abruptly
and Justin had called on average, four times a day. For there to be
four in one hour meant that something was going on. Lance couldn’t
bother to find out what it was.
Against his better judgment, Lance had trusted Justin. Wholly. He
believed him when he’d said he was interested. He’d believed that
Justin hated games. He’d hoped that it was for real. That they were
both on the same page.
The first time Justin had canceled, Lance had understood. There was a
huge account meeting with a new client. It was important. The second
time he had canceled, it was the rain check. Work again. Out of seven
dates they had made, Justin had canceled six. All because of work. No
there wasn't anyone else to do it, yes work was important to Justin.
More important than anything.
If work was this important now, Lance wondered how much worse it would
get when he got bored with the relationship. Lance wasn’t interested in
an empty relationship. They had marathon phone sessions. Justin working
late, Lance still at the bar doing the books. They had spoken until
dawn, watching the sun rise together on the phone. Lance couldn’t have
a relationship that was only fit into a schedule between two and seven
am. On the phone, no less.
So he stopped calling. Stopped answering. Wished he could stop caring.
The sound of the elevator interrupted his thoughts. It was a slow
Sunday night. Britney was on the bar and Howie was waiting. There was
no need for a hostess. Shock registered on his face when he saw who it
was.
"What are you doing here?"
Justin shrugged. "If you answered your phone once in a while, you’d
know."
"I don’t want to talk to you."
Justin gave Lance a smirk. "You don’t?"
Lance shook his head. "No."
"Good, then I’ll get to talk. Can we go somewhere else?" Justin knew
the answer, but he had to ask anyways. Lance growled at him. Justin
sighed. "Fine, patio it is." He looked over at the bar. "Brit?"
She gave him a nod and a thumbs up. "All taken care of Curly, it’s all
yours."
Lance furrowed his eyebrows. The patio was closed. They were waiting
for maintenance to come up and look at it. At least that was what Chris
had said when he phoned earlier. Clearly he’d lied. Before Chris could
protest, Lance found himself being led onto the deck.
"What are we doing Justin?" Lance asked, partially annoyed and
partially pleased with the younger man’s arrival that night. The last
thing he needed was for Justin to get him excited again, but Lance
feared it was too late.
"Groveling." Justin replied honestly. Lance raised an eyebrow. "Trying
to grovel," he amended.
"Don’t bother," Lance advised. He hoped that he sounded more detached
than he felt. His heart was racing, and his palms were sweating. Justin
always had this affect on him, but moreso now as his eyes were focused
intently on him.
"You can’t mean that."
Lance shrugged. "Try me."
Justin’s eyes narrowed as he contemplated his next move. Chris had
warned him that Lance would be very standoffish and upset, rightfully
so of course. Chris also advised him that if he was going to make this
work, he’d have to be willing to put in the effort. Justin was more
than willing. These games had gone on for far too long.
"Fine," Justin said with a smile. "I will."
Lance froze, he wasn’t expecting that. He expected Justin to accept
Lance’s dismissal and move on. That he wouldn’t care either way. A
piece of his heart rejoiced at Justin’s persistence.
"What does that mean?"
Justin grinned and leaned forward. They were nose to nose. Lance could
feel Justin’s breath fanning his lips. The skin broke out with goose
bumps and he shivered involuntarily.
"It means," Justin warned seductively, "that you are officially
forewarned. Prepared to be wooed. Prepared to be swept off of your
feet." Justin’s stomach flipped nervously. Lance was even more gorgeous
when he was confused and taken off guard. He brushed his lips across
Lance’s jaw, smiling against his stubble. "Prepare to be treated like
you’ve never been treated before."
Lance’s breath got caught in his throat. All that he let out was a
strangled whimper. By the time he recovered, he was alone. The patio
door was slightly ajar, the only proof that he hadn’t imagined Justin’s
presence. When he reentered the bar, Lance went directly to his office,
barely aware of the world around him.
Everything in the back, spacious, office was exactly how Lance liked
it. Neat. Tidy. Organized. Every piece of paper, pen, tack, was in it’s
rightful place. Except on the giant oak desk was a giant vase filled
with long stemmed roses. Lance’s heart fluttered. Justin had already
broken through the walls around his heart. Again. He could feel himself
falling for Justin again, but this time he decided he would make Justin
work for it. This time he prayed it would be different.
~*~*~*~~*~*~*
First it was roses. A few days later, candies. Justin had even managed
to send up Lance’s favorite dish from his favorite restaurant, only to
show up just in time to share it with him.
Even with the courting and the wooing, Lance had still not agreed to go
on an actual date with Justin. He was convinced that it was still too
soon and wasn’t ready for that step.
Chris warned him about games. It was dangerously becoming hypocritical.
Justin had asked him out every single time they spoke, in person and on
the phone. Lance continually declined.
It took longer than he had expected, but Justin finally found an
assistant. His name was Alex McLean and he was everything Justin was
looking for. And more. That night he phoned Lance, wanting to celebrate.
Lance was astounded to find out that Justin had hired an assistant for
the sole purpose of freeing up time. For him. His heart fluttered and
his stomach churned. Lance closed his eyes and tried to calm his nerves.
"I want to take you out," Justin said, excited. "To celebrate." Just as
he’d expected, and feared, Lance declined.
"I can’t." Lance had long since stopped providing excuses.
Justin sighed. "Of course." The conversation died instantly. Lance felt
awful. He wanted to say something to assure Justin that it wasn’t him.
He didn’t know what to say, so he kept quiet. "Can I ask you
something?" Justin asked, voice soft.
"Go ahead," Lance didn’t like the tone of Justin’s voice and the sound
of defeat that was present there.
"Is it okay because we don’t have actual dates?"
Lance was confused. "I don’t understand."
"I canceled, what, six times right? Six canceled dates and you told me
to grow up and figure out what I want. I did, went out and hired an
assistant because I know what I want and am trying to fix things and
it’s still not good enough. You’ve turned me down over fifty times. The
only time you don’t turn me down is when I show up at work to surprise
you. So I want to know. Is the difference between what I did and what
you’re doing that these aren’t actual dates? And that somehow makes it
okay?"
Lance sucked in his breath. He was totally justified in his accusation
and had honestly expected Justin to come to this conclusion long before
now. Justin was a far more patient man than he.
"J..."
"No." Justin held his breath, calming his nerves. "Just don’t worry
about it. Okay. You’re clearly not interested and I’m wasting my time.
I had my chance, I was an asshole and fucked it up and now ...I guess I
just can’t take the hint." Justin gave a sad, sarcastic laugh into the
phone. "How fucking stupid was I to think ...
"Justin," Lance whimpered. He’d gone too far and it was blowing up in
his face.
"No really Lance, you’re right. I’m really sorry for bothering you.
I’ll just call up Nick and we’ll do something to celebrate. Like old
times, just the two of us. Chris is working so Nick will probably want
to do something. I can’t believe I thought that I stood a chance. What
kind of idiot am I, huh?"
Lance wanted to cry. To throw up. To not have played games which had
turned him into a total hypocrite. "I ...I’d really like it if you
would come by tonight," he choked out. "I want to see you."
Justin’s voice was hard. Emotionless. "We’ll see."
Justin didn’t want to see Lance. Nick agreed and understood. He hated
seeing his brother in such obvious pain and for the first time this all
happened, Nick felt a surge of anger towards Lance. Lance was being
unnecessarily cruel to Justin and Nick wanted no part of it. Chris knew
they wouldn’t be by, he didn’t have to be told. Justin would have been
stupid to come by after everything that had happened. It was only Lance
that sat at his regular table and waited for a visit that wouldn’t
come. He had no one to blame but himself.
~*~*~*~*~*~
A week later, Lance made up his mind. He got over feeling sorry for
himself, hating himself and hating the world. He sat down with a bottle
of scotch and tried to sort out the mess in his head. All he sorted out
was that scotch on an empty stomach was not a good idea. And that he’d
fucked up. Justin had too, but he’d tried to fix things. Lance made
them worse. He had to swallow his pride and work on getting Justin to
forgive him.
He’d worry about convincing Chris to stop growling at him every time
they passed some other time. It was midway through the bottle that the
perfect idea came to him. Friday night, the bar would be closing for a
private function.
For him and Justin.
Lance spoke to Chris, who was surprisingly critical.
"You going to get your head out of your ass?"
"I’m trying."
"He’s really fucked up right now."
Lance knew it was his fault. He nodded. "I’m sorry."
"Dude, not me you should be apologizing to."
Lance then spoke to Nick.
"You done fucking with him?"
"I’m sorry."
Nick shook his head. He wasn’t looking for an apology, that was for
Justin. He wanted assurance that Lance was serious. "You done fucking
with him?"
"Yes."
"Good."
By Thursday he still hadn’t gotten a hold of Justin. It was one thirty
in the morning when his call was returned.
"Please have dinner with me, tomorrow night. Nine, my bar."
Justin was skeptical, something in Lance’s voice told him that this was
serious. He paused for a second, giving the invite serious thought.
Softly Lance gasped and Justin shook his head. He wasn’t up for their
usual dramatics. Work had been extremely hectic, on top of which he was
still training Alex. Granted, his assistant was a god send and Justin
wondered how he’d ever gotten along without him, it was still a
transitional period. And truthfully, Justin was starting to realize
that this ‘thing’ with Lance might never happen.
At all.
Let alone how he’d hoped it would.
Yet again, love had passed Justin by and if an honest, good, man like
Lance didn’t want him, who would?
Not to mention seeing Nick so disgustingly happy with Chris. His
brother had found his soul mate and Justin couldn’t even get a fucking
date. Except now Lance was calling, after months of refusing a date
with him. Justin figured that this was for the big kiss off. He sighed.
"I don’t know," he said pinching the bridge of his nose. "You don’t
have to do that. We can just call it even..."
"I don’t have to do anything, I want to." Lance swallowed nervously,
nearly pleading with Justin to agree. The thought that Justin might not
agree hadn’t seriously crossed his mind. Now he worried that they had
both gone too far and there was no way back. "Please."
"Why Lance? What more could we possibly have to say to each other?"
"You can’t mean that," Lance gasped.
Justin wasn’t so sure of anything. Finally, he relented. "Okay." He
owed it to both of them to try, if not just for closure. "Your place?
Nine? Are you sure you don’t want to go somewhere else?"
Lance knew that Justin had reservations about coming to his bar. From
his point of view, it was as though Lance couldn’t make the effort to
go somewhere else. That he could kill two birds with one stone, mix
business with pleasure. That had nothing to do with why he chose
Panorama for this venue. It was by far the most beautiful and romantic
spot in Toronto, something that he wanted to share with Justin.
"Please." Lance begged. "I don’t deserve it, but please trust me."
Justin held his breath. In his mind he answered with ‘Anything for you,
Lance.’ He responded vocally, "okay."
~*~*~*~
There was a sign on the door indicating that the bar was closed for a
private function. There was also a sign downstairs so people wouldn’t
make the 51 floor elevator ride for no reason. Justin missed the sign
downstairs.
He was in too much of a rush.
He was over an hour late.
Lance was going to kill him. Chris would castrate him. Nick would
probably chop the remains into small pieces and feed them to his fish.
It would all be too late. Justin was going to kill himself.
When he left his office, he was pushing it. If he caught both subways
quickly, he would just be able to make it. He hadn’t expected the
delay, especially being stuck in the elevator of his office building
for over an hour. At first he couldn’t even get in contact with anyone
at the security desk, the phone was not working. When he’d tried his
cell phone, that had proven to be useless as well, since he didn’t have
service in the elevator. When someone had finally realized he was
stuck, he scrambled out of his office building and across the street to
the subway, not wanting to waste any more time to stop to phone Lance.
With each passing minute he knew that his chances of Lance forgiving
him this time diminished. Panic moved to despair to resignation. In the
end, he hoped that he and Lance could at least be friends. As he rode
the fifty-one floors to the bar, he tried to calm his nerves and wipe
the tears of frustration from his eyes.
By the time he got there, he resigned himself to the fact that it was
over. He would apologize, say good-bye and go home to nurse his
shattered heart.
The doors opened. He expected there to be a hostess to greet him. There
was no one. The whole bar was empty and the lights were dimmed. Lance
was in the corner, talking on his phone.
"Shit, there he is. I’ll call you later."
Justin opened his mouth to speak, cut off by Lance throwing him against
the wall. Their mouths met in a rough, forceful kiss. Justin was caught
off guard, this was not the reaction he was expecting. When he realized
that Lance wasn’t letting him go any time soon, Justin fell into the
kiss, allowing Lance to practically devour him. The kiss remained
forceful and hungry until finally Lance slowed down, taking the time to
fully appreciate Justin’s mouth and the feel of their bodies pressed
together. They were both gasping for breath when the kiss broke.
Justin was confused.
Lance could feel Justin trembling in his arms and he held him tighter,
wanting to erase all of his pain and confusion. But most of all, his
worry. "Are you okay?"
Justin shook his head, he was lost. "I ...what ..."
Lance looked deep into Justin’s eyes and saw his confusion. He leaned
in and kissed him again, needing the comfort of having Justin there, in
his arms. "You’re here."
Justin frowned. "I’m sorry .. I’m late." .
"That’s okay. I’m just glad you're here."
This was not the Lance that Justin knew. He wondered if he was
dreaming.. "You’re not mad? I was supposed to be here over an hour ago."
"Of course I’m not late. I was just ...so worried about you ...we’re
all worried about you."
Justin shook his head and let Lance lead him to a table on the patio
that was decorated with candles, a bottle of wine chilling on the side
and soft music playing through the speakers. "I don’t ..." He rubbed
his eyes for a moment, trying to clear his jumbled thoughts. "Why
aren’t you mad?"
"Because I’m too scared to be mad. Because I’m so fucking relieved that
nothing happened to you."
"But ...I left on time, or I tried to anyways. I left my office and
hopped onto the elevator, but it got like, four floors down from mine
and just stopped. The lights went out and then flickered and the
emergency light went on. And at first I thought it was just a blip, but
then more time kept passing and I tried to call down, but the elevator
phone wasn’t working and my cell phone wasn’t working, and it took
almost an hour for someone to find me and get me out.." Justin was
bordering on hysteria. He gasped for breath and closed his eyes for a
second to calm his nerves. "And I was going to phone, but I was already
too late and didn’t want to waste time calling. So when I got to Bay
Station, I ran through the underground as fast as I could to get
here..."
Lance cocked his head to the side watching Justin crumble before his
very eyes. He had never seen this side of the younger man and felt his
heart go out to him. Lance cupped his face in his hands affectionately.
"Shhhh, it’s okay."
"I thought you would hate me. That you’d never forgive me for being
late and I thought about it all last night and realized that I don’t
care what has happened before, tonight was supposed to be our starting
over night. We were going to try this again, but without the bullshit
that happened before and then I was late... And I thought, what if this
is fate’s way of telling me that I’m never going to be happy..."
Lance sat Justin down and then sat down on his lap, wrapping his arms
around the younger man’s neck. He kissed him long and hard, something
he’d wanted to do for far too long. Justin didn’t protest to the kiss,
Lance could tell that he was relieved at being forgiven for being late
and wasn’t going to complain.
"You deserve to be happy," Lance whispered as the kiss broke. "It’s
going to be okay."
Justin shook his head. He still couldn’t believe that Lance understood.
This was not the scenario he’d been expecting.
Lance could tell that Justin needed some sort of an explanation. He
kissed Justin once more for good measure before speaking. "By ten after
nine I was starting to get a little worried, and honestly, a little
pissed off. I thought that this was it, you were blowing me off and
this was a way for you to get back at me for being such a prick lately."
Justin shook his head. "I’d never do that, Lance."
"I know, but I just couldn’t get past the fact that you were late. That
you might not show up. So first I called your cell and there was no
answer. I called the office, but there was no answer there either. Then
I called Nick and he said he’d just spoken to you, that you were on
your way."
Justin nodded. "I called him as I was leaving to tell him I was going.
Well, I talked to him for about a half an hour and just ...oh my god, I
was so nervous. I was just so scared that you’d changed your mind and
didn’t want to try this again with me and that you were bringing me
here for the big kiss off. He basically just convinced me that it was
going to be okay and I should come.
"By nine-thirty I was starting to get worried."
"Not mad?"
"For some reason, no. Annoyed, but not mad. Which is weird because I’m
ALWAYS pissed off if someone is late. You know? But it was as if ....as
if I knew that it wasn’t your fault. So I called Nick again and he said
he hadn’t heard from you either. He called the office and your cell.
Then he called the security of your building. He said that after eight
you have to sign in and out through security, and he had spoken to the
night guard many times before."
Justin chuckled and nodded. "Yeah, I’m always working late and he’s
always stopping by with dinner or whatever. He and Joey are pretty
tight now, they have a lot in common and get along pretty well."
"Well he said that he called the security guard and asked if you’d
signed out. You hadn’t, Joey I guess, said that you hadn’t gone by him
all night, which got Nick worried. Joey called up, got no answer and
then checked a few panels, it was then that he realized that one of the
elevators was stuck but hadn’t signaled."
"Huh?"
"The elevators are monitored at security. If there is one on a certain
floor for too long, or is in emergency mode, it’s supposed to beep,
like an alarm to let him know. This one wasn’t working, so he hadn’t
noticed that it was stuck. That's when he called for maintenance and
they came up to let you out."
Justin nodded, realization of what Joey had said to him dawning on him.
He’d been in too much of a hurry to stop and chat, and Joey had
mentioned that he was sorry he hadn’t saved me earlier. Joey had said
something else as well, but Justin hadn’t caught it all. His mind was
already on how many ways Lance could kill him for being late. "I was so
scared." Justin whispered. He kissed Lance, enjoying the simplicity of
it. There was no awkwardness, nothing except for relief that they were
finally there. Together.
"Me too. But mostly because we didn’t know where you were or what
happened. Nick had just spoken to you, you said you were coming here
and you should have been here by nine. When you didn’t show up and I
called him, he started to panic. It’s just not like you. And then I
just got these mental images of what would happen if you had have been
hurt ...or worse. And I realized that I didn’t care if you were late,
as long as I knew you were okay and coming home to me, that was all
that mattered. Even if you cancel, just knowing you’re okay, that
you’re alive and well ....and it made me see how stupid I’ve been. I
wasted so much time trying to keep myself from getting hurt again and I
only hurt myself. I hurt you."
Justin wanted to speak but Lance cut him off. He had a lot to get off
his chest.
"And you did exactly what I told you to do. You got your shit figured
out and decided what you wanted. You got an assistant. You made the
effort, and it still, it wasn’t enough. And I kind of, I guess I wanted
to see how far I could push you until it was too much. And when I
realized what I was doing, it was too late. I’d pushed too far. And I
was going to tell you all of this tonight, but then I thought something
might have happened to you and I wouldn’t get the chance to tell you
and that made me so sad. I swear, if Nick hadn’t have spoken to Joey
and realized you were still stuck in the building, I was about to start
calling hospitals."
"But I'm here," Justin assured him. He was astounded by how much Lance
was trembling in his arms. How affected he’d been. "I’m here now and
we’re going to make this work."
"We are," Lance assured him. "We are, because it hurt to not be with
you, but it killed me to think I’d never get to see you again. To never
tell you how much ..how much I care for you. How I want to see if these
feelings I have are ...."
"Love?" Justin asked, voice barely audible. They were thinking the
exact same thing. Lance nodded.
"Yes."
Justin stood up and let Lance slide down so that he was standing before
him. "I ... I don't know if I could eat right now," he admitted softly.
"Dinner will keep."
"Good." Justin led Lance inside and over to the far side, where there
was a spacious, large table. He was pleased to see that the tables were
all bare, except for the red cloth covering them neatly. His jacket was
on the floor almost instantly and Justin was working on losening his
tie. He raised an eyebrow and Lance started to follow suit. Halfway
down the buttons on his shirt, Justin abandoned his own clothes to
assist Lance. Lance resumed where Justin had left off.
"We could wait until it’s a perfect time," Justin said as he parted
Lance’s dress shirt. He slid it down the other man’s arms and tugged at
the wife beater underneath, leaving Lance bare from the waist up. Lance
followed his actions exposing Justin’s muscular chest and back. They
both gasped softly at the sight of each other half naked, bathed in the
candle light.
"I don’t want to wait, I want you right now," Lance admitted. He headed
to his office, returning moments later with two small cushions that
were always kept on the loveseat in his office. He threw them on the
table before unfastening his dress pants and letting them fall down his
legs. His underwear followed shortly after and as Lance kicked them
away, he watched Justin’s eyes roam shamelessly over his nude form.
Justin extracted his wallet from his back pocket and grabbed the condom
from the inside pocket. Lance smirked as he reached forward to undo
Justin’s pants. Moments later, they were both naekd and leering at one
antoher.
"You are so fucking gorgeous," Lance whispered, trailing his fingertips
all over Justin’s body. Goose bumps appeared everywhere Lance touched
and Justin couldn’t help but tremble. He turned his head to look out
the window, amazed at how beautiful everything around them was. It
caused him to catch his breath and Lance smiled. "That’s why I wanted
to come here. To share this with you."
"It’s beautiful," Justin admitted.
"It is," Lance agreed. "But what I just realized now, is that it
doesn’t matter where we are. I keep wanting to have you here with me
because this is the only place that I can think of that is as beautiful
as you deserve. But wherever we are, it is going to be just as
beautiful, as special."
Justin blushed, causing Lance to smile.
"So, tomorrow night? I was thinking maybe we’d go out for dinner
somewhere."
"Where?" They were standing in the middle of the restaurant, completely
naked and pressed tightly against each other, neither at all self
concious of that fact. Justin leaned in to cup Lance’s face. He never
thought that this night would end up like this, and refused to allow
himself to think too much about it for fear of finding out it was just
a dream.
"Anywhere you want."
Justin smiled. "But ..."
"Chris can watch the bar tomororw night." Lance tugged on Justin’s
hips. He leaned back on the table, laying down with his head on one
pillow, and his hips resting comfortably on the other. Lance saw the
surprise in Justin’s eyes and chuckled. "You don’t mind?"
Did Justin mind fucking Lance? Not by a long shot. "Hardly."
Justin cralwed up after him, settling himself between Lance’s legs. He
looked down at their bodies and then around him, feeling his cock
harden considerably. It was like a fantasy come true.
Their mouths came together in a steamy kiss, their tongues battling
between them. Justin ground their aching cocks together, while his
hands roamed shamelessly all over Lance’s skin. When they broke for
air, Lance’s lips were swollen and his eyes were shut tight.
"I think that I’m going to make Chris a partner."
"What?" Justin asked, his brain was fried and Lance was talking about
Chris.
"Of the bar. I’m giong to make him half partner. We’ve been talking
about it and ...I think it’s time I get some help of my own. So I’m not
bound to being here all the time."
"You said ...earlier," Justin whimpered. Lance had wrapped his legs
around Justin’s waist and it was hard to focus on anything other than
the feel of their bodies pressed together, of the look of Lance’s body
open and waiting for him. "That as long as I was coming home ..to you
..."
Lance blushed. He had wondered if Justin had heard that part. Clearly
he had. "Yeah."
A look passed between them, they both understood each other perfectly.
Justin smiled. "Good."
Before they could say anything more, Justin’s phone started to ring. It
was on the floor, in his pants pocket. At first he was going to ignore
it but Lance gently touched his chest.
"Answer it."
"Uh... No."
Lance snickered. "It’s probably Nick. He was worried sick about you. I
was talking to Chris when you came in, so they know you’re here, but he
probably wants ..." The phone stopped ringing and Justin grinned.
Seconds later, it started again.
"He’s going to keep calling until I answer."
"So answer it."
"No."
"What if it were him?"
Something pulled at Justin’s chest and he gasped. Lance smiled.
"Exactly."
"What?" Justin finally answered when he’d retrieved his phone.
"Bro, you okay?" Justin would have felt bad at the worry in Nick’s
voice and the harsh treatment he was giving him, but Lance was still
laying on the table, naked, hard and looking delectably fuckable.
"Fine. Got Lance naked, on a table ready to be fucked. Can we maybe
talk about this later?"
Nick snorted and rolled his eyes. "Fucker." He looked at Chris and
shook his head. "He’s fine. That teaches you to be worried about him."
"Me?" Justin heard Chris say. He started to laugh. He knew full well
that Nick was probably driving Chris crazy having not heard from him.
"Nick? I’ll talk to you later." Justin hung up before his brother could
take up any more of his time. He turned his attention back to Lance who
was breathing heavily, his cock weeping at the tip. "Now, where was I?"
"About to fuck me?" Lance shrugged, looking hopeful.
Justin grinned. "Right. I was." The condom wrapper was tossed onto his
pants and it’s contents sheathed over his erection. Justin used two
fingers to stretch his soon to be lover, shivering at the reaction his
fingers elicited in him. "God you’re so tight."
"Fuck .." Lance whimpered. "More... Just a bit more.."
"You sure you want me to..." Justin’s question was cut off with Lance’s
mouth on his, their tongues meeting in a passionate kiss.
"I want you, I want you inside me."
Justin shifted Lance’s legs so that they were over his shoulders. He
placed the tip of his erection at Lance’s opening. Without sufficient
lube, he’d been forced to stretch him more than he normally would have,
and now they were both at the breaking point. Justin needed to be
inside of him. Now. Ten minutes ago. Months ago.
The process was slow and torturous in that they both wanted Justin to
slam inside but knew that he couldn’t. Finally, after much stop and go,
Justin found himself fully sheathed in Lance’s body, his hips flush
against Lance’s ass.
Time stopped, neither man could breath. It was surreal and as Justin
looked down into Lance’s eyes, he knew that this was how it was
supposed to be. This was what Nick had tried to tell him the day after
he and Chris had first gotten together. Chris had left, reluctantly on
both of their parts, to go home and change before having to go in to
work and Nick had immediately called Justin, needing to talk. There was
just something about being connected to Chris and looking into his eyes
that had rocked Nick to his core. It wasn’t anything he’d ever felt
before, with anyone. Not even Kevin whom Justin knew Nick had loved
with his entire heart and soul. It was something that Nick had tried
desperately to explain to Justin, finding no words that could
adequately describe it. In that moment, Justin understood.
He started to move, slowly at first, letting Lance get used to him.
After a few moments, Lance was writhing against him, scratching at his
biceps hungrily. There was a feral expression in his eyes that
shattered Justin’s will power. He shifted so that he could lean down
and capture Lance’s mouth with his own, and kissed him as he thrust in
deeper, harder and faster. Any worries that it had been far too long
for him and whether he still knew what he was doing fled his mind as
Lance howled animalistically. There had been no direct stimulation to
Lance’s cock, yet still, he had just come and had exploded all over his
own chest, some even reaching his cheek.
Justin leaned down and licked the come from Lance’s face, pausing to
suck on his tongue. "So fucking good..." Justin mumbled. He wanted to
come desperately. He was right on the precipice of it, so close he
could almost feel it.
Lance clenched himself around Justin as best he could, focusing on the
after termors of his own orgasm and wanting to commit this moment to
memory. It was more than he could have ever fantasized and as Justin
growled and grunted into his ear, Lance felt his cock harden again. His
balls were on fire and with a surprised gasp, he arched his back and
came again. Justin’s cock punched directly into his prostate and Lance
whimpered, shaking violently underneath Justin’s assault on his body.
"Fucking hell," Justin grunted, shocked as he opened his eyes to see
Lance come a second time. He knew from talking to Chris and Nick that
Nick was able to come one after another, but had never witnessed it
first hand. And truthfully he wasn’t sure he believed his brother,
knowing that Nick liked to exaggerate when it came to talking about
sex. But he saw Lance collapse and hold onto his arms tighter, his body
Justin thrust in a few more times before he felt his whole body tense.
It was then that he reached his release, biting roughly into Lance’s
shoulder and expelling himself violently into the condom. He continued
to thrust as best he could around the termors, but he couldn’t focus on
the multitude of overwhelming sensations. When his body finally let go,
he collapsed onto Lance’s chest, burying his face in the other man’s
throat.
"Wow."
Lance chuckled and stroked Justin’s back lovingly. He looked around,
unable to believe that this had finally happened, and here of all
places. He didn’t regret a single moment. "That was amazing," Lance
mumbled against the side of Justin’s head. He softly kissed the curls,
practically purring.
"Definitely better than I’d fantasized," Justin admitted. He propped
himself up on his elbow so he could look at Lance. Their eyes met and
so much passed between them. He leaned in and pressed his lips to
Lance’s, needing the comfort of his kiss. "So, you’re not working
tomorrow?" He asked, voice hoarse.
Lance shook his head. "Nope. Whole day off. I just have to clean
everything up tonight before we go and that’s it." Justin raised an
eyebrow and Lance motioned to the two of them on the table. "I don’t
think Chris is going to want to come in tomorrow and have to deal with
come stained tablecloths. Especially tablecloths stained with our come.
His and Nick’s ...not so much of a problem, ours ...problem."
"True." Justin snickered. With a groan, he carefully rolled off of
Lance, hating the feeling of their bodies separated. He gently pulled
off his condom and wrapped it up in a handful of cocktail napkins from
the bar.
"My office," Lance suggested. He grudgingly got off of the table as
well and followed Justin down the hall to where his office was located.
There was a private bathroom in there, which although did not have a
shower, did have a large sink and plenty of towels. "Throw it out in
here, I’ll bring the garbage down when we go."
Lance kept several changes of clothes at the office for emergencies
such as this one. Rather than have them both change into their more
formal, work wear, when they were finished, he handed Justin a pair of
shorts and a tee shirt, himself slipping into a pair of jeans and a
tee.
"These are going to look stupid with my dress shoes," Justin whined
playfully. Seconds later Justin tossed a pair of flip flops at him.
Justin grinned. "Perfect fit, just my size." He looked at Lance’s feet
and then his own. Taking account the difference in their height, he
felt his stomach flip excitedly knowing that they wore the same size
shoe. The shorts were slightly baggy on him, but not by much, and just
enough to have Justin’s heart fluttering. The tee shirt, on the other
hand, was snug, outlining his muscular chest and stomach perfectly.
"Hungry?" Lance asked, eyeing Justin. Their eyes met and each took a
moment to appraise the other.
"Starving," Justin answered. He could see the hunger mirrored in
Lance’s eyes.
"Me too."
"Good. So lets have something to eat, enjoy the beautiful view ..."
Justin started. He was cut off by Lance’s kiss.
"And then go home and take care of it." He wanted more. Now. He was
ready for Justin again, that once was not enough to satisfy the need he
had deep inside of him. Justin nodded, licking his lips. "Yeah."
They headed out of Lance’s office, Justin went straight out to the
table where they had just fucked and removed the pillows and table
cloth. He balled them both up and put them in a giant bag, knowing that
they should take them and wash them personally. He tossed his clothes
in there as well. Lance headed directly into the kitchen to get their
dinners. Finally, they were seated at the table on the patio, the food
between them untouched. Their eyes were closed blissfully, mouths
feeding hungrily on one another.
"Thank you," Justin whimpered as he pulled away. "Thank you for giving
me another chance."
Lance’s face clouded over and he looked down. It should have been him
apologizing, not Justin. "No, thank you. I’m sorry for fucking you
around, especially after I got so mad that you’d done it to me."
"You were hurt. You had every right to be hurt."
"Hurt is one thing, punishing you is another. I was wrong."
Justin nodded and kissed Lance’s mouth affectionately. "We were both
wrong." He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, allowing himself to
get lost in the moment. When he opened his eyes, he saw Lance watching
him with a look of utter adoration and love on his face. "I’m so glad I
found you. When I first saw you, that first time we came here ...I was
so ...awed by you. I never thought that you ...that we ..."
"I know," Lance whispered. He felt the same way. "We’re going to make
this work," he promised.
"And if we don’t?" Justin asked, needing to know the answer. He saw
Lance’s lips curl into a smirk.
"There’s always your brother, he’s pretty hot." Lance snickered as
Justin’s jaw dropped. He leaned in to press their mouths together in a
steamy kiss. "I’m kidding, I don’t want anyone but you." Justin didn’t
look convinced. Lance leaned in to whisper something in his ear. The
doubt was erased instantly and Justin’s cheeks turned an impressive
shade of red. Lance grinned. "Believe me now?"