Title: The One Where Nick
Screws Up Author:
Pairing: TimberNick Part: 1/1 Series: "The One" Series Rating: PG Disclaimer: Fiction for
entertainment purposes, not to be taken as truth. Warnings: Bi-Groupal Warning Notes: This flowed so smoothly
in my head ...Im not sure it transfered just how I wanted it. It was
supposed to be for Valentines day but I didnt get it done in time.
~*~*~*~*~*~
"So what youre saying is that you forgot?" Nick asked calmly. His
hands were perched on his hips, his face was a mask of disbelief mixed
with a tiny bit of anger. There was a flickering of candle light
dancing on the walls as Barry Whites voice wafted through the air.
Nick was frozen in spot, unable to believe not only what he was
hearing, but what he was seeing.
Justins lips curved into a sheepish grin and he just barely shrugged
his shoulders.
It was obvious by the way Nick was dressed that Nick was dressed up for
something special. He was wearing nice slacks, a dress shirt and a tie,
although he wore no socks or shoes, he had his glasses on, those damn
glasses that did something to Justin every damn time he wore them. More
often than not, Nick chose casual wear when they were lounging around
the house, yet the moment hed opened the door, Justin noticed that
Nick had taken the time to dress extra special. This was more than just
them getting together for dinner, as Justin had been led to believe,
and as he looked down at his ripped jeans, tee shirt and sneakers, his
heart was racing because he knew that hed missed something vitally
important. His heart continued to sink at the expression in his lovers
eyes.
"You forgot? Like really forgot?" Nicks eyes widened and he felt his
blood pressure rising. For a moment, he thought maybe it had been a
plan devised by Justin to catch him off guard. That he was going to
pretend that hed forgotten what today was, but really had known all
along and was planning something. Slowly Nick realized that it wasnt a
scheme, that Justin had really forgotten and the worst part of it was
that Justin didnt look like he cared. At all. That only further
enraged Nick.
"Im sorry, it must have slipped my mind." Justin looked at the table
where there was a romantic setting for two displayed. On one of the
plates, Justin figured that was his, there was a small, wrapped box. He
felt his throat constrict and a wave of shame filled him. Things had
been so hectic with him that the date had completely slipped his mind.
If anyone asked him what day of the week it was, let alone the actual
date, Justin would have been lost.
"Slipped your mind? Valentines day, the most romantic day of the year
just happened to SLIP YOUR MIND?"
Justin could only nod dumbly, aware of how upset Nick really was. He
knew that almost anything he said would set the blonde off even more
and he chose to remain silent. It hurt him to see Nick as angry and
upset as he was. Nicks next outburst caught him off guard.
"Get out."
Justins jaw dropped. "W..what?"
"Get out." Nicks voice was low, his eyes narrow.
"You cant be serious!"
"Why cant I?" Nick walked to the door, opened it and nodded towards
Justin. "I dont want to see you. Get out."
"Anymore?" Justin barely managed to squeak. His heart was racing at a
frantic pace, his whole body was trembling and he could feel his world
ending slowly. He would have, in that moment, promised anything and
everything to be able to rewind time for just a few hours. To a time
when he could have looked at a calendar, any calendar and realize that
it was February 14th. If he could, he might be able to salvage this
relationship which had somehow spun out of control and out of his hands.
"Right now. I cant see you right now. Get out."
"Nicky, please," Justin begged. "Im sorry."
Nick turned his head, he was through listening. Nothing Justin could
say would matter right now, he could barely look at his lover, let
alone listen to his excuses.
With a heavy heart and devastated soul, Justin heeded Nicks wishes and
left. The tears were streaming down his cheeks before hed crossed the
threshold.
"I love you Nick, remember that."
Nick slammed the door and remained silent.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"So you kicked him out?" Kevin asked, incredulously. Nick had shown up
on his doorstep just after breakfast looking like hell had paid him a
very long and extended visit. His eyes were blood shot and he hadnt
shaved. There was also the fact that he was wearing his Sunday bests,
which albeit were wrinkled from having slept in them, but still gave
him an air of sophistication. Nick looked awful, Kevin had let him into
the house immediately, with no questions asked.
They stared silently at each other over a pot of coffee until Nick
finally began spilling his tearful story. Once hed started, Nicks
emotions ranged from anger, to desperation to exhaustion. Kevin
listened silently, taking it all in until Nick exhaled and rested his
head on the table.
Silence fell over the room at Kevins question. Nick made no move to
respond so he repeated himself.
"You kicked him out?"
"Fuck! Yes."
"Because..."
"He had no damn clue it was Valentines day. I made dinner. COOKED!!
There were flowers, candles, music, presents .... SHIT. I even dressed
up!" Nick stood up and motioned towards his clothes, as if that would
answer everything.
"And?" Kevin thought Nick was overreacting. Just a tiny bit.
"AND?" Nick couldnt understand how clueless Kevin was. He expected
sympathy, a shoulder to vent on, complete and utter agreement on
Kevins part. He got nothing, which was saying a lot since Kevin hated
Justin. "AND????"
"And?" Kevin sighed. "So he forgot. I never pegged you the shallow
type."
Nicks nostrils flared, his eyes narrowed. If possible, he was now more
mad at Kevin than he had been at Justin, which was saying a lot because
he was seething with rage towards his lover. Kevin had officially
become public enemy number one.
"Its Valentines Day. The most romantic day of the year. How can he
forget?"
Kevin blinked. He carefully thought out what he wanted to say. After a
few silent minutes he realized that there was no delicate way to
proceed, especially if he didnt want to completely piss Nick off.
Nick continued ranting. "So what? All of a sudden youre defending him?
After years of being on my case about him, telling me how worthless he
is, how much you hate him and how he doesnt deserve me because hes an
asshole, he finally fucking proves you right and NOW you decide that
you like him? What, have you joined his fucking fan club for Christs
sake?"
"Im not joining his fucking fan club," Kevin exhaled. He had to
control his temper, the last thing he needed was to worsen Nicks pissy
mood. If they were both spitting fire, nothing would get accomplished.
His mind wandered for a moment and a smile crept up on his face.
"What?" Nick growled as Kevins lips curled into a grin. He could just
see the wheels turning in the older mans eyes.
"For 29.95, you too can be a member of the Justin Timberlake fan club.
Special VIP online access, first dibs on tickets, an iron on patch, a
monthly letter and a cool tee shirt. Maybe I SHOULD sign up, my old
Justin Timberlake tee shirt is getting pretty tattered."
Nicks mood worsened and he became even angrier at the other man. Of
course he couldnt be supportive WHILE Nick and Justin were happy. He
had to wait until Nick wanted Kevin to hate him to switch sides,
fucking traitor.
Kevins snickers had turned into full blown laughter, which got louder
as Nicks frown intensified. "Oh come on Nick, you cant not laugh at
that. The image of ME wearing Timberlakes tee."
Nick cracked as mile. Then he vowed to kill Kevin later. "Fuck you."
"No Nick, FUCK YOU."
Nick was startled at the matter of fact tone in Kevins voice. His
eyebrows were raised as if to dare Nick to challenge him. "What the
hell?"
"Im serious Nick, fuck you. Answer me this, what was that thing...
About a week ago?"
"What thing?" Nick winced as he tried to remember what Kevin was
talking about. Kevin rolled his eyes.
"Tickets. To the Super Bowl. Real tickets, not comps."
Nick sighed and this time he rolled his eyes. "That was for my
birthday." He ignored Kevins growls.
"Okay... Kevin mentally went back to assess every single time in the
past few years that hed been forced to endure Justins company. He
smiled and shrugged. "What about that time ...in October? Youd been
feeling down and depressed, Justin was on the other side of the fucking
world but the second hed found out you were upset, he called Joey.
Told Joey what to buy you and to surprise you to cheer you up."
Nick frowned.
"Oh... And when he came to surprise you in the studio out of the blue.
He was missing you, so he flew in for the night, brought you that
romantic picnic ..." Kevin stopped at the expression on Nicks face. He
was getting through to him. "...kicked us all out of the studio and
told us to go somewhere for a few hours. Even fucking gave us money for
dinner, just to get rid of us so he could surprise you with that
romantic picnic."
Nick stopped listening.
Kevin continued. "Oh, and when he sent you those ten dozen roses and
Howie freaked out because of his allergies."
Nick had never hated Kevin more.
Except that he didnt *really* hate him.
He hated himself, because Kevin was right.
Nick was a spoiled asshole.
The thing that surprised Kevin out of all of this, was that he suddenly
couldnt figure out why hed spent so much time and energy hating
Justin so much. Clearly, Justin was the best boyfriend Nick had ever
had, and didnt deserve half of the shit that Kevin had put on him.
Kevin was always saying how Justin didnt deserve Nick, how he was a
menace and that Kevin hated his presence in the blondes life if not
for the fact that he didnt treat Nick half as good as he deserved to
be treated.
Kevin had been wrong. Hed never been so wrong about anything in his
entire life.
Although he knew Nick had gotten the point, Kevin couldn't stop.
"And that weekend, he took you to his cabin for a romantic get away..."
"Surprised you with presents, every day hed been away in August..."
"Constantly emailing, paging, texting, calling ...to tell you he loves
you..."
"I get it, Kev."
"So I dont know HOW he could dare to forget the most romantic day of
the year...."
"I get it."
"You were right to kick him out."
"I get it."
"Should have done it sooner Nicky..."
"I GET IT!"
Both Nick and Kevin stopped at Nicks loud, bellowing scream. They
stared at one another. Kevin was trying not to smile and Nick was
glaring at him, nearly growling.
"You know, in retrospect, I think I was a little too hasty in judging
him." Kevin looked off into empty space, thinking. "You think hes
looking for a rebound?"
Nick threw his arms up in defeat. Kevin had clearly won this round.
"Youre straight Kevin. You fuck women!!"
"So?" Kevin shrugged. He loved how easy it was to push Nicks buttons.
"Justin seems to know how to treat a man, and I can overlook the fact
that he has a cock."
"Hes taken!!"
"You threw him out!"
"Yes, OUT. Not AWAY! We fucking fought..." Nick stopped and sighed. "I
fought. I was an asshole."
"On the most romantic day of the year." Kevin fought not to put a
condescending ring to his words.
"God damn it Kevin. Shut up!" Nick breathed in deeply. "I know I fucked
up."
They stared at each other and both men smiled. A silent conversation
was had between them and Kevin pulled him into a tight embrace.
"You want help winning him back?"
The thought was tempting, but Nick shook his head. He fucked up all on
his own, so he needed to fix it on his own too. The soft slap to his
face came as a surprise. Kevins smile was warm, but his eyes were
sharp.
"Youd better treat him well, he deserves it."
A warm tingly feeling went through Nicks body. This was certainly a
change. "Wow, I never thought Id see the day."
Kevin groaned and put his head in his hands. "Youre telling me!"
~*~*~*~
The final touches were put on their dinner as Nick slid the dish back
into the over under the broiler. Candles flickered romantically in the
dimly lit room, Barry Whites voice was echoing off of the walls and
Nick felt butterflies in his stomach. Hed called Justin the second he
had stepped out of Kevins house. The call had gone directly to
Justins voice mail, meaning that he was either on the other line, or
had it shut off.
"J... Baby... I cant even begin to apologize for last night, at least
not on the phone. Just know that I love you and if youll let me, Id
like to spend tonight making it up to you. Please come over at 6:30, I
hope to see you then."
Justin hadnt phoned him back. Nick went on the hope that it meant he
would be coming. If he didnt, Nick knew he deserved it. And more. He
desperately tried to be positive about Justins arrival, but knew that
if the positions were reversed, he might not be so quick to forgive.
Justin always was better at forgiveness than he was.
It was twenty five to seven and Nick felt his stomach churn. Hed half
expected this, but it still hurt. A lot. With trembling hands, Nick
pulled the veal parmiganna from the oven and set it on the cooling
rack. The CD had just changed to Michael Bubles newest disc when the
sound of a car door slamming caught his attention.
Seconds later, the doorbell rang.
Nicks heart was in his throat.
The last thing he expected was to find Justin AND Chris on his doorstep.
"Chris... Jesus..." Justin groaned as he looked at the shock and
disappointment on Nicks face.
Chris shrugged off Justins touch and looked at Nick through hard,
unforgiving eyes.
"You listen here Carter..."
Nick nodded slowly.
"I dont know how the fuck you THINK you are, but no one treats Justin
the way you did last night."
"I know."
Nicks remorseful tone and sad facial expression threw Chris off.
"What?"
Chris was forgotten the instant Nick pulled Justin into his arms.
Justin could feel the regret in his embrace, the sorrow on his lips.
"Im so glad you came," Nick mumbled against Justins throat. "I was so
upset, so worried."
Justin's resolve to stay strong and detached crumbled instantly. He
fell into Nicks embrace, relishing the feel of their arms around each
other. "Of course I came."
"Well..." Chris felt awkward and unwanted. He shifted from foot to
foot. "I guess I fixed that..." Air from the door slamming in his face
blew his hair back. Theyd gone inside and left him standing alone on
the door step.
It was like deja vu, the room was exactly as it had been the night
before. It made Justins stomach churn nervously. Before he could
speak, Nick opened his mouth.
"You have every right to hate me."
Justin nodded.
"I was wrong, I was being a spoiled brat."
Justin nodded again.
"I dont deserve you."
Justin didnt respond, only cocked his head to the side.
"I love you so much it fills me. Fills me and then some. And you make
me so happy, so complete. And I almost threw that away last night
because I was being stupid and childish."
Justin remained silent. His heart was breaking from the pain in Nicks
voice, but he needed the blonde to say all of this. He needed for it to
get out. If not for Nicks sake, then for his own. Nick gave a nervous
chuckle causing Justin to smile.
"You know, Kevin asked if you were single. If he could have you."
It was the last possible thing that Justin was expecting Nick to say
and his jaw dropped open. "Are you fucking kidding me?" Justin knew too
well how much Kevin hated him.
They broke out into laughter. Nick shook his head and held up his
hands. "Im totally serious.
"But ...hes straight."
"Thats what I said."
Justins expression was serious. "What else did you say?"
Nick pulled Justin close and kissed his jaw. "That you werent single.
That I threw you out, not away. That even Im not stupid enough to push
away the best thing that has ever happened to me. Not for real anyways.
I dont even know what I was thinking last night, Baby. I just ...you
had no idea what day it was and didnt even seem to care and I went
crazy."
"Im sorry for forgetting.. But I didnt think you would respond that
way ...I mean, Ive never been all about Valentines day.."
Nick shook his head and kissed Justins lips. "I know. I mean ...with
you, every day is like Valentines day. Thats what Kevin reminded me
of. You dont need a day to show me how much you love me, or be
romantic. You do it all the time."
Justins cheeks turned a dark crimson.
"No, dont get embarrassed. I wish I could be half as romantic as you
are..."
"You are," Justin assured him. "Youre always doing sweet things for
me, picking me up flowers, or making dinner. Sending me presents and
calling or writing to let me know youre thinking about me."
"Its just so easy, I love making you smile. I love showing you how I
feel about you."
"And you do." Justin pulled Nick into the living room and sat him down
on the couch. He crawled onto Nicks lap and wrapped his arms around
his shoulders. "We dont need a special day to show each other how we
feel. I mean, I wish I did remember yesterday was Valentines day
because its an excuse to go over the top and be even more romantic,
but at the same time, it hurt that you got SO upset. That you thought I
didnt love you enough."
Nick shyed away, obviously embarassed at his outburst. "Im sorry."
"I know," Justin leaned in and kissed Nick thoroughly.
When the kiss was finished and Nick had tasted every inch of Justins
mouth, he pulled away and looked deep into his lovers eyes. "Can we
pretend?"
"Pretend what?" Justin asked softly. He found himself falling deeply
into Nicks crystal blue eyes.
"That today is yesterday? That yesterday never happened." Nick frowned
as Justin shook his head. "No?"
"No, I dont want to pretend it didnt happen. I think it was very
important. I wish it hadnt happened, but we cant pretend."
"But ... I ruined..."
"You didnt ruin anything," Justin assured him. "We fight all the time,
we yell and overreact and scream all the time. So what? It happened on
February 14th, whose to say that February 15th isnt the most romantic
day of the year? Whose to say that June 18th isnt the most romantic
day of the year?" Justin giggled as Nick licked a path from his ear
down to his jaw.
"So what youre saying is ..."
"What Im saying is lets turn the oven onto warm, put dinner back in,
go, get ourselves hungry and then Ill feed you."
"Can I feed you?"
Justin grinned against Nicks mouth. He pulled Nicks shirt tails,
tugging them towards the stairs that would lead them to Nicks bedroom.
"Nicky, if you play your cards right, you can do whatever you want."