Title:Sorting Things Out

Author:Jules

Part:1/1

Series:3 of Letterboys in Love (Sub series of Fetish)

Feedback:Yes Please - mailto:slash_me_baby@yahoo.com

Backstories of Fetish: http://boyslash.just-in-dreams.com/jules.htmlor http://boybandfantasies.homestead.com/JulesStories.htmlor
http://www.allihave.net/tangobaby44/fiction/julesseries.htm

Backstories of LIL: http://boyslash.just-in-dreams.com/jules.htmlor
http://boybandfantasies.homestead.com/JulesStories.html

Rating:NC-17

Pairing:Letterboys (AJ/JC)

Warning:Slash warning, bigroupal warning. Schmoop warning.

Disclaimer: This is all fiction for entertainment purposes. I'm not assuming anything.

Notes:Now, I think bendy is my new favourite word. But it has to be said all seductive like, with JC cuffed to a bed naked. I don't know why, but I can TOTALLY see him saying it like that and I think that is my absolute favourite part of this story. Sorry.. just needed to share that.

Sorting Things Out
by Jules

The second that he was given the green light, AJ shot out of the studio like a bat out of hell. As much as he enjoyed hanging around with the other guys, celebrating the fact that they'd finally finished the CD, there was someone else he'd much rather be spending time with. Someone waiting for him at his house, ready to do some celebrating of their own. The drive from the studio to his house was long and torturous, but AJ's mind was already on what was going to be happening when he got there. Throwing the car into park, he jumped out and slammed the doors, barely remembering to arm the alarm and lock the doors. "Josh? Where are you baby?" He shouted, sprinting into the front foyer. He cocked his head to the side, listening for any indication that his lover was somewhere in the spacious house. Finally, he heard a voice calling to him from the upstairs.

"Alex? Up here sexy."

AJ felt his cock harden and he grinned, making his way up the stairs. As he made the trip up, he began to quickly discard his clothes, leaving them strewn wherever they landed. By the time he'd made it to the bedroom, he was completely naked. And hard. Gently, he pushed open the bedroom door, eager to see what awaited him on the other side. His breath caught as he saw JC sprawled on the bed, hands tied to the headboard with a pair of pink, fuzzy handcuffs.

"Fuck." AJ breathed, feeling his cock twitch with excitement. "How did you...."

"I'm very bendy." JC wiggled his eyebrows and giggled as he heard a low moan escape AJ's lips. "Now.. I think that someone has something to celebrate...."

AJ was across the room and on the bed before JC could finish his sentence, capturing the older man's lips in a bruising kiss. He could tell that JC was fighting against the cuffs, finding the sight of his lover completely helpless an unbelievable turn on. When he finally pulled away from the kiss, AJ licked his way down JC's body, sucking and nibbling on his nipples before making it to his belly button, and finally his cock. AJ aligned himself with JC's body, amazed at how beautiful he was stretched out, the skin on his stomach and chest stretching and showing his muscles to perfection. "You are so fucking beautiful Josh." He mumbled, swiping his tongue over the head of JC's erection.

JC let out a cry in response, trying to angle his hips for AJ to take more into his mouth. Much to his dismay, AJ simply chuckled and pulled away, shaking his head.

"Not yet gorgeous. I want to take my time with you. Taste every inch of your body, have you moaning and whimpering before I fuck you."




"Oh god." JC grunted, biting his lip. "Alex.. this is supposed to be for you. I'm supposed to be doing this for you."

"But you did baby. You knew how much I wanted this.... how many times I've told you that you're the perfect present. You ..at my every desire. And right now I want to taste you." AJ began his journey, learning every inch of JC's body. He moved slowly, paying more attention on the spots that would make the older man cry out especially loud. Once he had licked, bit, sucked and kissed every inch of JC's body, AJ settled himself on top of him, taking his mouth in a passionately furious kiss. Their erections were grinding wildly against one another and AJ had to pull away before he came too soon. "You ready Josh?"

JC was shaking, the need to cum overriding everything else. He managed a weak smile and nod, his eyes wild with lust.

"Good." AJ rested JC's legs over his shoulders and placed himself at his entrance, pushing in so that just the head of his cock entered him. Both men trembled and without warning, AJ slammed in the rest of the way, causing JC to cum instantly. "Fuck yeah." AJ grunted, watching his lover cum violently under him. He knew he had teased the older man too long and that it would be quick for him. That was exactly what he had been going for, so now it was his job to get JC back to that point and cumming a second time before he himself would let go.

JC was unbelievably sensitive, every touch heightened. He felt AJ moving at a slow steady pace and opened his eyes. He was shocked to see AJ staring down at him, a smile on his lips. When their eyes met, AJ leaned down to whisper something in his ear. "Did that feel good Josh? It looked like it felt so fucking good..." He could only moan and hold onto the head board tighter. "It felt good to me. You cumming ...your ass clenching and pulling me in tighter." AJ thrust in harder, swiveling his hips to slam directly on his prostate. The jolt of electricity made him jump, AJ's eyes twinkling at the sight.

"Please...." JC had no idea what he was begging for AJ to do, but he just needed something. Anything.

"Please what? Make you cum again?"

JC was about to protest and tell AJ that he didn't think he'd be getting it up again any time soon when he felt something hard in between them. Looking down, he was surprised to see his cock, hard once more sandwiched tightly between their bodies. The friction sent tingles throughout his entire body. He leaned up and brought AJ's face down once again to his, engaging him in a kiss. His tongue explored everywhere in the younger man's mouth, wanting to taste him, swallow him whole if he could.

"Do it Josh. Cum again. Let me feel you cum for me." AJ prodded, changing his position, angling himself so that he could work at JC better. Once he was comfortable, he began to slide out and slam back in, quicker and deeper than before. He watched as JC's eyes roll back into his head, his body tensing. It was then that JC exploded one more time, bringing AJ with him. AJ continued to thrust into JC as their bodies trembled, collapsing as he felt every ounce of energy drain from his body. Blindly, he reached up pressing the button that would release the hand cuffs, allowing for JC to free his wrists. Almost instantly, he felt his lover's arms wrap around his body, lips placing a kiss on his forehead.

"I'm so proud of you Alex." JC whispered, curling tightly against the younger man's body. They stayed like that for a few moments before JC had to move, untangling their bodies from one another.

"Stay." AJ whined, refusing to let go of the older man.

"I can't. I have to go home and change. And then Lynz is coming over and I want to talk to her before you come and get me for Nick and Kevin's party. JC hurried to the bathroom, leaving the door open so he could talk to AJ while he showered quickly.

"Do we have to go?" AJ called over the noise of the shower.

"Yes." There was no discussion. They were going. Truthfully, AJ was looking forward to the night out, but at that moment all he wanted to do was enjoy his post orgasmic bliss with his boyfriend. Defiantly, he stuck out his tongue at the general direction of the bathroom. The water shut off and AJ saw a flash of skin as JC grabbed a towel and quickly dried off. He was in the bedroom and dressed before AJ could successfully get out of the bed and stop him. "Now. Be at my place around 10ish okay?"

AJ sat on the middle of the bed, arms crossed over his chest and his lower lip out in a pout. When JC finally noticed he began to laugh, causing AJ to giggle as well. "What if I don't wanna?"

"Don't wanna what? Pick me up?" JC stopped, turning to look at AJ. When he received a nod in response he shook his head. "Fine. Then you don't get to take me home and fuck me later."

That sure as hell caught AJ's attention and the pout dropped from his face. "Huh?"




"This was just a preview. The real celebration comes later. But if you want to be a sucky baby and..."

"So 10 you said? I'll be there at 9:55." AJ cried, jumping from the bed and rushing to JC's side. Both men giggled at the impish grin on AJ's face. JC leaned in and covered his mouth with a lingering kiss.

"Good. I'll see you then baby." JC said. He flashed AJ a wink and left, reminding him one last time to be there by 10. Lynz would be arriving at 9 and that would give them an hour to talk before he got there.

As AJ thought about it, he was pretty nervous going to the party with JC and Lynz. JC wasn't who he was nervous about really. He didn't care if anyone knew that he and the other man were involved. It was no one's business but his own. Of course, he planned on telling Howie and Brian about their relationship that night, wanting to share it with them. And he had to tell Nick and Kevin how well their plan had worked, so that wasn't what was freaking him out. She was what he was a little freaked about and he didn't know what to expect. JC had assured him that she was fine with their relationship, and it wouldn't be awkward, but he wanted to be the judge of that. And the only way to do that would be to spend time with her. Thus, they'd decided that the three of them would go together.

Well, actually JC had decided that. And with the bat of his beautiful blue eyes and pout of that sexy lower lip, AJ had relented and agreed to make it a threesome. Figuratively. They would all go together, thus giving them time to get to know each other.

The time passed quicker than AJ would have liked and he found himself standing on JC's porch at 9:53. Seven minutes ahead of schedule. He entered the house, noticing that the light in the kitchen was on, indicating that they were in there. "Josh?" He called out, heading towards the kitchen. As soon as he entered, he saw them both seated at the table, drinking wine. "I'm here.." He said, finding himself frozen by the chilling stare Lynz was giving him.

"Alex." She spoke, no emotion to her words. AJ felt his stomach churn.

"Y..yeah." He watched her check her clock and then cluck her tongue against the roof of her mouth. 'You're early. Seven minutes early."

AJ had no idea whether or not this was a good sign. She wasn't smiling, but then again she wasn't frowning. She didn't seem to be doing much of anything.

"Ummm yeah."

To his relief, a wide grin spread out on her face and she stood, walking across the kitchen to where he stood. "Good. I like men who are punctual. You're going to do just fine." And before he could say anything, he found himself in a tight embrace, her lips warm on his. In a moment of shock, AJ opened his mouth slightly and felt her tongue dance in before pulling away, winking at him. "Josh has been telling me all about you." It was then that AJ remembered that his lover was in the room. He must have looked a little spooked, because JC stood as well, pulling him into a tight hug.

"You okay baby?"

"I am now." AJ replied against JC's neck, inhaling his now familiar scent. They stood like that for a few minutes before the sound of a throat clearing interrupted them.

"Jayce. Maybe you should close everything up so we can get going." Lynz suggested, her eyes warm, voice gentle. JC nodded, giving AJ's hands one last squeeze before leaving them alone to do as Lynz suggested. AJ was about to turn around to get something from the fridge before he found himself face to face with Lynz.

"I wanted a chance to talk to you alone." She spoke, making sure not to be too forceful with AJ. She wasn't sure exactly how comfortable he was with her at this point, and the last thing she wanted was to do something to cause him to distrust her.

"Okay."

"I've known Joshua for a long time. Longer than people realize and I've seen him through a lot of things. Rough times as well as good. I have seen a lot of men and women come in and out of his life and...."

AJ stepped back, wondering where she was going with this. JC had told him that there was nothing romantic going on between them, but this sounded suspiciously like a warning to stay away from him. "Excuse me?" He said, watching her warily.

"Please AJ. Let me finish." Lynz said softly. When he didn't move to continue speaking she did. "I've seen a lot of men and women come out of his life and never have I seen him as happy as he has been since you two talked. You've turned a light on in his eyes that even I have never seen. Not with Bobbee and not with Tony. And those are the only two who managed to get further than the wall he's constructed."







AJ felt his whole body relax and relief fill his senses. She hadn't been warning him, just reassuring him. He suddenly felt embarrassed. "I'm sorry.."

"Don't be. I know you don't fully understand his and my relationship, but know that you don't have anything to worry about. From either of us. He loves you. Only you. Sure, he loves me, but it's not that type of love and I think deep down you know that. So what I want to tell you is congratulations. You have something very special, his heart. It's the one thing that not a lot of people can say that they have of his. You truly are one in a million." Lynz could see the emotion on AJ's face and she approached him slowly as to not surprise him. Their eyes met and she pulled him into a hug, stroking his back gently. "You make him happy. And when he's happy, that makes me happy. He deserves it. So take care of him Alexander."

He hadn't had a chance to respond when JC entered the kitchen, surprised to see them embracing. It sent a strange rush of excitement flowing through him, the possibility of what he'd talked to her about earlier that much more of a reality. Sensing him in the room, Lynz pulled away and beckoned him closer.

"Now. Josh and I have spent a great deal of time discussing things this evening Alex. May I call you Alex?"

AJ simply nodded. He could now see the lure of her power, how she had this way about her that made you want to do whatever she asked.

"Well we've talked and I think that I would like to see you in my dungeon. Whenever you are ready Alex, you will come to me. To my house. Of course, you must have Joshua with you the first few times, so there is no hesitance or awkwardness. I am willing to help you understand our lifestyle in any way you would like. You can watch or participate. It is your choice and your choice only. This has to be something that YOU want for you, not what you want for someone else. It only works if you have your whole mind, body and soul connected to what you are doing. If there is even the slightest bit of hesitance, it will not work. You have to trust your Master or Mistress wholly. Seeing me with Joshua may give you the trust you need, or you might get it all on your own. Or perhaps it may not come. That remains to be seen. But I do want you to know that whatever you are looking for, whatever you decide, I am willing to train you as I trained Joshua."

Alex swallowed slowly, the reality of it all sinking in. "I understand completely. Thank you." He was met with a smile and a soft kiss to his lips.

"Don't thank me yet Alex. I haven't done anything. You will be the true test. If you can get over your fears and reservations to open your mind to the possibilities, THAT will be when you can give thanks. I'm simply the medium to get you there."

Once things were settled upon, the only remaining piece of information being when AJ and JC would make the visit to Lynz's, they locked up and headed towards Darkness Blvd. where the party was waiting for them. It was in full swing as they made their way through the downstairs, showing their invitation at the door to the Lair. AJ walked on one side of Lynz, JC the other, their arms linked.

They each made their way around the room, greeting the other guests and talking, making themselves comfortable. They made sure that they were always touching each other, whether it be their shoulders brushing as they stood against the bar talking, or one's arm loosely around their waist, hand pressing hotly against the other's back.

"What are you thinking about?" AJ asked, seeing a far away look in JC's eyes. They had both decided that they were going to drink, but not to excess. The last thing either of them wanted was to be thoroughly wasted by the time they went home, thus ruining any chance they would have to continue their celebration from earlier.

"You. Here. With Kev and Nick." JC admitted. "I just wish I had have been able to see you here that night. I know it was a long long time ago, but still."

"I could say the same thing you know. Just wanting to see you ...submitting to them. I know how Kevin can get..."

"Aje. You need to know that it's okay if you don't.."

It was amazing how after such a short period of time, they could read each others' thoughts. He knew exactly what JC was going to say and had been holding it in since they were at his house earlier. "Listen to me Josh."

"No Aje I need to say this..."

"No. YOU listen to me." When JC stopped talking AJ kissed his nose. "Thank you. Thank you for wanting to protect me, for caring so much about me that you're willing to ....forgo what you want. But you have to know that I'm old enough to know what I do and don't want. I'm not going to Lynz' with you because I think it's what you want me to do. If I didn't want to, I wouldn't. You know that. So stop trying to talk me out of it."







JC blushed and looked away, unable to meet his lovers' eyes. "It's not that I'm trying to talk you out of it..."

"You're just worried I'm going to see what goes on ...what you *really* like and leave you. Isn't that it?"

JC gave a nod, still refusing to meet AJ's eyes.

"Do I really seem that vanilla?"

That surprised him, and with a snap of his head their eyes met. "What?"

"Do I seem so vanilla that you don't think that I like my sex kinky? I might not be as deep in it as you all are, but still... I'm not the virginal school boy you seem to think I am."

At the thought of AJ as a virginal school boy, both men started to laugh, JC relaxing considerably in his lovers' arms. "So don't worry about it. If there's something I don't like, don't worry about it. Lynz was right, I do have to do this for myself. And I am. Call me selfish, but I'd really like to see what turns you on ....what can make you cum harder than you've ever cum before. And at the same time, I'd like to find out more about myself than I already know. This is going to be a learning experience. If I don't like it, I won't continue. But you need to let go of the notion that I'm going to leave you. I'm not."

"I'm sorry Alex. I just..."

"Don't be sorry. Just be you. The rest will work itself out."

They were still talking when the music was lowered and Nick and Kevin stepped out in the middle of the floor to speak. AJ was asked to join them, as was Brian and Howie, all five men wanting to thank everyone for being there to celebrate the fact that their CD was finally finished.

JC stood in the back with Lynz, watching them intently. Well, watching AJ intently, the others were merely in the background. It had been two weeks since his CD had started selling on his web site and he'd been shocked at the reception it had gotten. They had sold all of the initial copies that they'd made, and a second batch had been called in. When the media had gotten wind of it he had everyone on his doorstep, demanding interviews and explanations of why it had been done secretly. JC had flown on the first flight up to New York to make a guest appearance on MTV, explaining why he decided to go the route he had with the CD. That had been AJ's idea, flying up to talk about it on TRL. It would be a great chance to tell the fans what had been going on in his head, as well as promoting it on a more widespread level. But what the fans didn't know, was that there would only be a limited number of CDs to be bought. He wasn't interested in touring for the album, making a whole career of it. It was just something to pass the time between NSYNC recordings.

One of the things that had surprised him the most since it had all started was the support he had gotten from the others. AJ had also been the one to bridge the gap that was forming between JC and his band mates. They had spoken about it one night, AJ telling JC that the quickest way to end any hopes of friendships between them would be to start selling the CD without warning Chris, Joey, Lance or Justin. And it shouldn't have been a warning, so much of wanting them to enjoy the success with him. They had argued about it for quite some time until finally JC relented, stating that if it would shut AJ up, he would do it. That had started another fight where AJ felt it didn't need to be done to shut him up, more so than to share it with his best friends. In the end, JC had invited the other four to see him. It took a few days, but they'd gotten together, all five of them in the same room for the first time in almost a year. Tears had been shed, apologies made for the extended absence in each others' lives and friendships rebuilt. It was then that each confessed their part in the gap between them all, and it was then that JC informed them of his solo CD. He'd managed to get them each a copy of it, more surprised at how proud of him they were than anything. Apparently they had always known that he'd be able to go solo. Do his own thing. They had just been surprised how long it took him to do it. That night found JC on AJ's door step, flowers in hand, apology on the tip of his tongue. But he still hadn't told his best friends about AJ's part in the union, in the making of the CD. That would come later, when he was ready to share him with everyone.

The pride that had been in AJ's eyes throughout that whole process was now in his own eyes, ecstatic to see the love of his life doing the one thing that made him the happiest. Once their speeches were done, AJ returned to his side, discreetly tangling their fingers together. AJ had wanted to tell Howie and Brian about their relationship before seeing it first hand, and so, until they'd had time to talk about it, both men decided to keep things on the down low.

The room was silent as Kevin and Nick continued to talk, informing the group as a whole of the proceedings while they were in Mexico. Although AJ and JC had been informed of the wedding and what it meant for them, they were shocked that the two had decided to make it public. With each person that a secret was told to, that only raised the possibility of it leaking out to the public. The press.

"Did you know that they were going to do that?" JC asked, placing a feather light kiss on AJ's neck.




"Not a clue." Both men stared at each other, both wanting nothing more than to share a kiss but knowing it wasn't possible. Not just yet. "Fucking gutsy though."

"I'm proud of them." JC wished that he could be as brave as his friends were, knowing what a big step it was to admit something like this to a big group of people. He just couldn't imagine being in their shoes, in front of everyone that he knew bearing his whole life for people to see. It was just too much of a gamble, and he wasn't sure if it was all worth it in the end. As he turned to look at AJ, watching him watch his best friends so much in love, JC rethought his position on things. Up until this point nothing had been worth the gamble, the effort put into it. But as he studied the man beside him, the man he loved more than he ever thought possible, JC knew that he would do anything for this man. That thought should have scared him. Shockingly, it didn't, it only made him feel stronger. Instinctively, he felt his fingers tighten around AJ's, conveying his love through that small gesture.

Nick and Kevin finished their speech and everyone went back to doing what they had been before the interruption, a line up forming to talk to the two men. AJ wanted to talk to them, but knew that it would be a few minutes before they were free. "Lets go for a bit." He whispered, licking the shell of JC's ear.

"Where? You wanna go now?" JC was confused, the party had just begun and AJ wanted to leave? He saw the twinkle in those beautiful brown eyes and felt his groin tighten.

"Wanna go in Nick's room... I know they've got these other rooms..."

"Shouldn't we stay..." The thought died on JC's lips as he felt AJ's hand discreetly stroke him through the baggy jeans he was wearing.

"It is MY night right baby?" AJ asked, knowing exactly what he was doing to JC. When JC grunted he continued. "I was thinking maybe we could go somewhere and while I wait to talk to Nick and Kev... you could blow me."

"Meet me in the second door down the hall in five minutes." JC said through clenched teeth, stumbling away on shaking legs. He had to get away before he came, AJ's hand bringing him dangerously close. He waited a few moments and then snuck down the hall, quietly opening the door he told AJ to go into. Finding the room empty, he leaned against the cabinet to wait for his lover to appear. It was about four minutes before the door opened, AJ cautiously stepping in.

AJ couldn't believe that JC had actually agreed to this, and as he stepped into the room, he found himself pulled in further, the door closing behind him. "I'm..." His mouth was taken in a furious kiss, JC's tongue licking at his own like a cat's, his pants undone and around his ankles expertly. "Wha?"

"You said you wanted a blow job... Hard to do it with your jeans on." JC explained, sinking to his knees. He raised AJ's tee shirt for him to hold. When AJ didn't move he rolled his eyes and smirked. "Hold this." AJ grabbed the shirt while JC grabbed his thighs, widening his legs just enough. In mere seconds, he'd opened his mouth, taking AJ's entire length deep into his throat.

"Mother fuck..." AJ grunted, grabbing the back of his lover's head with his free hand. He felt JC giggle around his cock, sending shock waves through to his balls and beyond.

JC started a fast and furious pace, not wasting any time. He wanted AJ to cum and wanted it fast. They didn't have a lot of time, someone would probably come looking for them if their presence was noted as gone for too long. One of his hands reached up to cup AJ's balls, rolling them gingerly while applying just enough pressure. AJ made a loud whimpering noise and JC knew it was time. With one more tug on his sensitive testicles and a swallow around the head of his cock, JC felt AJ explode, cumming down his throat. He swallowed as best as he could, feeling AJ buck against his face, forcing himself further down his throat. JC waited until he felt the younger man's trembling subside before letting him slip from his mouth. He softly kissed the patch of skin just below AJ's naval, raised his jeans back to their original position and refastened them. Once he stood up, he softly kissed AJ's lips, letting him taste himself on his tongue.

"That... I .... You .... Wow." AJ swayed for a second before he felt JC's arms wrap around his waist to steady him.

"You like that baby?"

"Uh-huh." AJ grinned, starting to feel his legs again. He leaned up to kiss JC again, this time sucking his tongue into his mouth as he slid his hands into the front of JC's jeans.

"No time baby. We have to get back out there." Regretfully, JC led AJ to the door, making sure that they were both presentable.

"What about you?"




"You can get me later." JC winked playfully. "You go out first, I'll be out in a few minutes."

AJ nodded, slipping through the door and heading down the hallway to where the party was still going on, full swing. He saw Brian talking to Nick and Kevin and knew that he had to move quickly if he wanted to be able to talk to them alone anytime soon. Making his way through the room, he passed Brian, giving him a half grin and wink. Approaching the two lovers, he said softly, "you guys busy?"

"Nah, what's on your mind Bone." Nick turned so that his back was to Kevin, the older man's arms around his waist comfortably. AJ watched the ease with which they moved, how comfortable they were with one another and fought to remember a time that they weren't like this. He couldn't do it. He'd been angry when they'd first came out at his house that day, wondering why they hadn't told them sooner, but as he'd thought harder, he wondered how he hadn't noticed it. It was clear in every move they made how much in love they were.

Breaking out of the daze he was in, AJ blushed and looked down, avoiding their eyes. "Thank you. I never got to say thanks." He heard them both laugh and raised his eyes again, wondering what was so funny;

"Alexander James McLean blushing AND saying thank you? Has hell frozen over?" AJ blushed further and stuck his tongue out at the younger man, which only fueled his laughter. "Real mature Aje."

"Fuck... I'm not kidding. Thank you for what you did for me. For us." He couldn't help it, he had to see where his lover was. When AJ found him standing across the room talking to Lynz and another one of the people from the party he let out a deep sigh. JC had to be the most beautiful person he'd ever laid eyes on, his inner thoughts voiced softly. "He's wonderful guys. I mean ...I never really thought I could be this happy."

"I'm glad Aje. If anyone deserves it, it's you. But there's something I have to ask..." AJ paused, knowing that whatever it was that Nick was about to say, he probably wasn't going to like. "What's going to happen when we go on tour? When he starts to record with the rest of his guys and...."

AJ closed his eyes and shook his head. "We haven't discussed it yet. We're going to take it one day at a time right now." When he received no response, his eyes fluttered open and he found himself staring into concerned blue pools.

"You're going to have to deal with it soon Bone..." Kevin said softly. "I'm sorry Aje. It's not our place...."

"No. No Kev. It's okay. I know that we've got to deal with this ..it's just not something I want to think about right now." It wasn't anything that he'd wanted to think about just yet. He knew that if he started to focus on them leaving, he wouldn't have been able to finish the CD, putting it off as long as possible. And the last thing he wanted to do was spend the next week thinking about their good bye instead of enjoying the time they had together.

"But things are good with you two?" Nick asked.

"Amazing. He's absolutely beautiful. And he makes me feel so safe. I can't explain what it's like to just lay in his arms, knowing that he's enjoying it just as much as I am." At that exact moment, JC turned to face them, his eyes meeting AJ's across the room. The electricity, even at that distance was amazing and AJ felt goose bumps on his skin. It had nothing to do with the blow job he'd received not 10 minutes earlier, nor was it the promise of more to come when they got home. It was just knowing that he was there, in the same room, loving him as much as he was loved in return.

A few moments passed when they both looked away from one another, and AJ focused his attention back to the men standing before him. Once Kevin had his full attention, he spoke. "Tell him that we're happy for you both. I'm just relieved that it all worked out, that we hadn't made a mistake." AJ nodded, clearly distracted, Kevin's laugh breaking him from the fog he was in. "I think you should go to your man. He's looking pretty lonely without you."

"I love him." AJ said softly. It was mostly to himself, but loud enough so that Kevin and Nick could hear. That had been intentional, him wanting the two men that brought him and JC together just how happy they had made him. "And I owe it to you. Both of you." When he turned, Nick and Kevin could see tears pricking the corners of his eyes. Nick nodded as Kevin gave him an warm smile. He didn't have to say more because he knew they understood. He simply nodded his head, turning around to return to his lover.

"How did it go?" JC asked as AJ joined them.

"Good. I just had a few things that I wanted to say to them."

"Like?"

When AJ didn't answer, Lynz simply smiled and turned to the other girl that they were talking to. "So, Virginia, why don't we go get another drink?" The girl simply nodded, leaving them alone to talk.







"I just wanted to thank them. For ...setting things up with us. For knowing me better than I know myself sometimes." AJ admitted once they were alone. JC nodded and he continued. "I love you, and I love that they knew how good we'd be together."

"I think I'm going to go over and say a few things of my own. Do you mind?" JC asked, watching Nick and Kevin from the corner of his eye.

"Nah. I think I'm going to go and talk to D and Rok. It's about time I told them about the man in my life." At that moment he didn't care who could see them, AJ wanted to kiss his lover and did just that. Leaning over, he softly pressed his lips against JC's enjoying the sensations before he pulled away. "I'll see you later, okay baby?"

"Yeah." JC agreed, watching AJ go off in one direction, while he went in the other. Fortunately, as soon as he'd moved to approach, the person talking to Nick and Kevin took that moment to leave, giving him the perfect opportunity. "Nick... Kev?"

"Jayce. Enjoying the party?" Kevin extended his right hand to meet JC's which was hanging in mid-air, an invitation to shake.

"It's great. Thanks for the invitation." JC shook Nick's hand and they all stood smiling at one another.

"First off... you're a part of the family now. Any Backstreet girlfriend or boyfriend is a part of the Backstreet family. So you would have had an invitation extended with AJ's. But second, you know that you're welcome here at any time. This is as much of your place as it is any of our regulars."

JC blushed at Nick's words, nervously combing his long locks behind his ears. Sometimes he would get a moment of clarity and be completely shocked at how things had progressed in the past few months. Standing here in this room, with these people would have been the last thing on his mind only months earlier. But now it felt completely natural, and he knew that it wouldn't be the last. These people were nothing like he'd expected them to be, and at times he wondered if Lou hadn't concocted the rivalry between them if they'd have been friends earlier. Thinking about it though, JC wasn't sure if he would have changed anything. "I guess ...I just needed to thank you both." JC started, his voice soft. "I mean ...for what you did for us. I know that you four set us up that night at Stages, and as much as I knew that something was going on when Kyle called ... I wouldn't have imagined it being Alex." He sensed that Nick was trying not to laugh at him, Kevin also tensing as he spoke. He had no idea what was so strange for them both to react that way. "What?"

"What what?" Nick countered.

"You both tensed up and are giving me this weird look. Why?" JC's eyes moved from green to blue, watching them both closely. Something was definitely up between the two lovers.

"It's just ..." Kevin sighed, his eyes roaming the room for AJ, finding him talking to Howie and Colin at the table nearby. JC watched his expression change and turned to see what he was looking at. He knew exactly what AJ was telling them and felt butterflies in his stomach.

"It's just what?"

"You called him Alex. He lets you call him that... he doesn't let just anyone call him Alex, so you must be really special to him." JC's mind went back to the moment AJ told him to call him Alex. He couldn't help the silly smile that decorated his face. Kevin continued to speak. "See. When he came over to talk to us, he had the same reaction when he was talking about you."

"I love him. I'm so in love with him." JC gushed, blushing profusely. It felt good to tell someone. It was something he wanted to tell the world, but knew that no one was ready for that admission. Not him, not AJ and definitely not the world.

"Have you guys said it before... to each other?" Nick asked. When JC nodded he grinned. "You have?"

"After the first time we made love."

"Well congratulations Josh."

JC felt himself being pulled in for a hug and relaxed against Kevin's body. "I should be saying that to you two." JC pulled away to look both of them in the eye. "I think that what you're doing is wonderful. I know you haven't come out to the press with this yet, or even if you're going to at some point. But you're not hiding it. You're telling the people that matter and that's the first step. You're embracing the fact that you're in love and it doesn't matter what anyone says, you're ..." JC's eyes were filling up with tears and he let out an emotional sigh. "I'm really proud of the both of you. I don't know if Alex and I are going to get to this point, but if we do,




I'm glad that we'll have you both to lean on."

"You'll make it Josh. And when you do, you know we'll always be here. Whenever you need to talk or vent or whatever. He's our friend, but so are you. You're part of the family now." Nick leaned in and softly kissed JC's lips. It was a chaste kiss, but both men shivered at the contact. When they pulled away JC grinned.

"I should get back to Alex. He'd gone to tell Brian and Howie about the two of us. I told him I'd go with him but he said it was something he wanted to do on his own. It looks like he's done so I think I'm going to go and spend some time with him."

AJ went to Brian first. Brian and Leighanne had only been a few feet away from where he'd been standing with JC and thus, that was his first stop. "Rok? Leigh? Can I talk to you?"

The couple nodded and AJ sat down, realizing for the first time how nervous he was. If this was how he felt telling them about JC, he could only imagine the nerves that Nick and Kevin had been battling when they'd confessed about their relationship. He reminded himself to once again, tell his band mates how proud of them he was. How strong he knew that they were for doing what they did.

"I just wanted to let you know...." He paused and felt Leighanne's hand cover his.

"Is everything okay AJ?"

"It is now." With one glance to where JC was in the middle of his conversation with Nick and Kevin, he knew that he had to tell them before it went on too long and they got caught. Because tonight had been a complete test of his will power, and he was losing something fierce. He would have to make sure that he and JC were never at the same social party. He had a feeling that he wouldn't be able to be on his best behaviour like this again. "A few weeks ago I sort of ...started seeing someone."

Brian's jaw dropped while Leighanne's face broke into a big grin. "I knew it." She exclaimed, clapping her hands. "Who is it?"

"You knew?" Both Brian and AJ said, shocked.

"Oh sweetie, you've been so much happier lately. Something's changed in you. I just didn't know what it was. Who is it?"

AJ blushed and she giggled, causing him to blush further. "Fuck you Leigh. Stop laughing at me." His voice was light, a smile breaking through. When she continued to laugh he knew the way to stop her. "JC. Chasez."

As he suspected, all laughter stopped and Brian's jaw dropped once again. "JC? Chasez?"

"Yeah."

"You're together? Like ...together?"

AJ nodded, holding his breath. Leigh was the first to recover. "Congratulations. I can see how happy he's making you. You deserve it baby." She stood up and pulled AJ into her arms, hugging him tightly. Brian stood slowly, his eyes wandering to where the man in question was talking to Nick and his cousin.

"How?"

"Nick and Kev set us up."

"You love him?"

"Fuck yeah."

Brian grinned and AJ released the breath he was holding. "Good. It's about fucking time."

"For what?"

"That you found someone that makes you happy. I never thought it would be him, but still.. there's a lot of things that's happened that I wouldn't have expected. All three had to nod at that comment, knowing how true it was.

"So... I'm guessing we're going to be seeing a lot more of him then eh?" Brian asked. AJ nodded, biting his lip.

"He is pretty..." That resulted in a slap to the back of his head from both AJ and Leighanne, causing all three




of them to burst into laughter. "Seriously though Bone. Congratulations. I'm glad you're happy."

"Thanks Rok." AJ stood. "I'm going to go and tell D now. We've been keeping things on hold all night until I could tell you guys about it. I wanted you to know before a room full of relative strangers saw us practically fucking against the wall."

"Good plan."

He made his way towards the table that Howie hadn't moved from all night. AJ recognized the guy his best friend was talking to as the bartender and smiled, not seeing Howie this relaxed in a long time. He wasn't sure the nature of their discussion, but from how close they would get every once in a while, he suspected that there was something on the make. "D? Sorry to interrupt." He watched as the men broke apart, the bartender blushing slightly.

"No worries Aje. Grab a seat." AJ nodded, doing just that. The silence was a bit awkward until Howie realized they didn't know each other. "Oh right. Colin, this is AJ. Aje, this is Colin."

"Hey AJ." Colin said, flashing him a smile that made AJ chuckle. Yeah, he could see why Howie hadn't left this one alone all night.

"Hi Colin."

"Nick introduced us." Howie explained without removing his hand from where it was resting on Colin's leg under the table. He could feel the other man tensing and wanted him to know that it was okay, that he could relax.

AJ laughed and shook his head. "Figures."

Colin looked uncomfortable as he looked at Howie for reassurance. "You want me to leave you two alone?"

AJ answered, knowing that Howie didn't know why he was there. "No. It's okay, you can stay. I just had some news to share with D."

"If you guys want to talk privately..."

"No really Colin. It's not a big deal." AJ looked at his best friend and smiled. When he saw Colin relax he continued. "I just wanted to let you know that .... I'm sort of seeing someone."

Howie simply stared at him, unsure of what to say next. AJ could sense that he had questions, one in particular.

"JC. Chasez."

"Wow." That was Colin, both men suddenly remembering that he was there. When they both turned to look at him, he shrunk back and moved to stand. "I'm sorry.. I have no..."

"My words exactly." Howie interrupted, tightening his hold on the man's thigh. He focused his attention back onto AJ. "How long?"

"Few weeks. Still new.. didn't want to jinx it." AJ shrugged sheepishly.

All three men turned to look in the direction that JC was, speaking with Nick and Kevin. At the same time they turned to look at them sitting at the table, and AJ's eyes met those of his lover, a multitude of emotions passing between them. All he wanted to do was grab JC and go home to finish what they'd started earlier. He'd gone all night being able to see his lover, breifly touch him but not as much as he'd wanted to, and it was starting to get to him.

"I see how happy you two are." Howie commented, covering AJ's trembling hand with his free one.

"We are D."

"Do his guys know?"

"Not yet. We thought we'd start with mine and then tackle his next. They're still not too aware of his bisexuality."

AJ focused his attention back to the table and smiled, seeing his best friend grinning. "Well I'm glad Aje. I'm sure we'll be getting to know him quite well in the next while. He seems like a great guy."

"He is."







"He's coming." Colin said softly, laughing when they gave him mirroring looks of confusion.

"Excuse me?" AJ asked, not sure if he understood right.

"Right now. He's coming." Colin giggled, shaking his head. "Over here. He's on his way over."

All three men started to laugh as AJ's head spun around just in time for JC to lean down and kiss his forehead. "How are things over here?" JC asked, happy to see smiles on everyone's faces. As much as they both knew Howie and Brian would be cool with their relationship, JC knew that AJ was a little nervous.

"Great." Howie said, standing up and extending his hand for JC to take. "Welcome to the family JC. You've now entered, the Backstreet Zone."

"The what?" JC asked, laughing at the tone of HOwie's voice.

"The Backstreet Zone. It's similar to the Twilight Zone ...but in Backstreet terms." Howie explained. AJ simply nodded his head, agreeing.

"That's right baby. Things are a little different in the Backstreet Zone than what you're used to." Howie sat back down while AJ in turn, stood up to give JC a more lengthy kiss. Now that the important people had been informed, he wanted the closeness he'd been denied all night.

"Thanks baby, I think I needed that." JC whispered, taking AJ's hand in his own.

"Me too."

"Can we..."

"Yeah." AJ turned to face Howie and Colin, who were watching them with amused expressions on their faces. "We're ..."

"Going to go now. We could tell by ...." Howie's eyes lowered to the newly forming bulges in both men's pants. When he saw their hands cover where his eyes were lingering he laughed and finished his thought, "the expressions on your faces. You can just see how much you two wanna get out of here." When their eyes met, Howie winked at his best friend, both men breaking out into laughter.

"Yeah. Something like that D."

"Can you guys tell Nick and Kevin that we say good bye?" JC asked, pulling AJ against his chest.

"No problem. Go home and ...well we all know what you're going to be doing when you get home..." Colin winked.

They bid the two men their good nights, next going in search of Lynz, to let her know that they were ready to leave.

"So ....we're gonna head out Lynz." JC announced once he'd found her, chatting with an attractive male. One that JC was sure he'd recognized as one of Nick's servants.

"Well boys, I'm impressed. You've lasted longer than I'd imagined." Her eyes twinkled as she stood to give both men a hug and peck on the lips.

"You're going to be okay getting home?" AJ wanted to make sure that she was fine with them leaving her there. The last thing he wanted was for her to be stranded with no means home.

"I'm a big girl Alex. Don't you worry about me."

"We'll call you with plans." JC promised, hugging her one last time before being led towards the exit. They were silent until they had reached the outside, JC following AJ to his car parked in the lot. It was still relatively early, the downstairs of the club still open. Waiting for the car to warm up, JC turned to look at AJ, surprised to find the younger man watching him. "What?"

"Nothing. Just looking at you." AJ leaned over and took JC's hand in his own, bringing it to his lips.

"My place or yours?"

"You know... one of these days it's going to be ours. And there will be no question." AJ started the car, putting it into reverse and heading out of the parking lot. He heard JC's breathing hitch and briefly averted his eyes from the road to smile at the older man. "Until then... How about we go to yours." JC nodded and AJ




made his way through the streets, driving towards JC's house. Something was on his mind and he knew that he had to talk about it with him before it drove him crazy. "Nick brought something up to me tonight."

"What? Is everything okay?"

"He was wondering how we're going to deal with my going on tour. What's going to happen while we're on the road and seperated for so long."

JC sighed, feeling his whole body tense at the thought. That had been on his mind a lot lately as well, not wanting to bring anything up too soon. It appeared that now they were going to have the conversation they'd both been dreading. "I don't know. What do you want to do?"

"I don't think that this has to be the make or break of our relationship. Yes, it's going to be hard but I think it's going to be okay." There was no way he was going to be thinking negatively, and thus AJ had in his mind decided that they would work around the touring schedule and time apart. "We both know what touring is like ..and I think that we're both mature enough to trust that neither of us would be fucking around. This isn't like any other relationship we've had before. At least its' not like one I've ever had."

JC nodded his head, indicating that AJ was right. "Exactly. And I can always come up to visit you on tour. You'll have days off and can come home... or we can meet up somewhere in the middle."

They arrived at JC's house and both climbed out of the car, heading up towards the front door. By this point, AJ already had enough things at JC's house that they didn't need to stop at his place to pick anthing up. And if there was anything that he didn't have, he could fit into JC's clothing pretty well, thus eliminating any problems. Wordlessly, they made their way up the stairs to the master bedroom, both men undressing and meeting in bed.

"Tuesday night." AJ said knowing that JC would understand completely. He saw recognition flash in his blue eyes and smiled.

"Okay. I'll call tomorrow." They both moved in, initiating a passionate kiss that conveyed eveyrthing that they'd been holding in all night. JC rolled so that he was on top of the younger man, grinding their erections against one another. When the kiss broke, AJ struggled to speak.

"When are you going to tell them?" With that one question, JC stopped moving entirely.

"What?"

"When are you going to tell them? About us?" AJ saw the hesitation enter his lover's eyes and felt his stomach drop. He tried to roll out from under JC but felt himself pinned to the bed.

"I was going to do it once you'd gone back on the road. I don't want to share you with them right now. We've got a week left and I want to spend as much of that as I can with you, not tracking them down and telling them, wasting our time alone. It's not something I want to do on the phone, so when you leave next week, I'm going to arrange to have everyone together, probably either in LA where Justin is or New York where Joe is and then tell them. Everything."

"Everything?" AJ asked, his eyebrow raising. He laughed when JC blushed and looked away.

"Okay, maybe not EVERYTHING. But what they need to know. About you and me, our relationship. I can't deny the fact that when we finally go on tour or start recording, I'm hoping that you'll be there to share it with me, just like I'm going to be on tour with you as often as I can."

"It's going to be hard you know. Keeping it on the down low." Both men knew it was true. Once they were back on the road, it would be harder for them to keep their relationship a secret, eyes and ears on them 24/7.

"I'm sure we'll be fine. We've managed it this far, and we're both pretty careful with where we go and when."

AJ caught JC off guard, flipping them over so that he was on top, both men groaning from the friction of skin on skin. The heat was sparking between them. "How about we dedicate Thursday night to worrying about this? I mean, our flight leaves for New York for our press conference at 7am, so that means we've got to be at the airport by at least 6 ...leaving the house at 5 and so up by 4. We'll have dinner, go a few rounds and then spend the rest of the night worrying about how we're going to deal with you here and me there. And then when I return on the Monday for a few days, we can start it over again, but this time with more sex and less worrying." AJ's lips curled into a sly grin, his eyes dancing. "Does that sound good?"

JC nodded, wrapping his long legs around AJ's slender waist. "Until then, we can prepare ourselves for Tuesday night and the workout that Lynz is going to give us..."

"Give US? Excuse me baby, but as far as I know, I'm just an observer. We'll see what happens with me."







JC laughed, shaking his head. "Oh baby, you have no idea. Ten minutes after you get there you'll be begging her to tie you up and spank you until you're crying. Then she'll fuck you so good you'll be begging her to start all over again." JC felt AJ's cock twitch in between their bodies. "And then I'll bring you home and have you begging again ...or maybe I'll be begging. It really could go either way." JC growled into AJ's ear, making the younger man shiver.

"Fuck tuesday night baby. I'm begging you now." AJ whined, grinding himself shamelessly against JC. He was met with JC reaching down between them, placing AJ at his entrance. With one sharp thrust, AJ found himself burried inside of JC's body, the men letting out groans of contentment. When they were both ready, AJ began to move, pulling out before sliding back in, the pace slow and tender. They moved together like that until finally AJ couldn't take any more, needing to speed up. He let one hand slip between them, grasping JC's cock and pumping it in time with his thrusts. As their bodies worked harder to acheive their impending orgasms, JC tightened his legs around AJ's waist, pulling him in further. It took only a few more thrusts and AJ felt himself let go, cumming violently inside of his lover. His hand continued to pump JC's cock and as he kissed the older man, he felt him tremble as the orgasm he was holding washed over him. Their mouths remained locked in an erotic kiss until finally their orgasms subsided, leaving them both breathless and spent. It was then that AJ pulled out of his lover, rolling them so they were spooned together, bodies pressed against each other tightly.

"I really am proud of you Alex." JC spoke, his voice soft and tired.

"Just like I'm proud of you baby." AJ replied, placing a soft kiss on his lover's shoulder. "And don't worry about next week. Let's get through this week and take everything else as it comes. Both men fell asleep tangled together, mirroring smiles on their faces.

Finis.


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