Title: Heaven Author: Jules - mailto:slash_me_baby@yahoo.com Genre:Slash Pairing: Nick/Kevin
		Rating:		NC-17
		Disclaimer: This is not real, it never happened. Heaven by Jules Nick sighed. Another boring night in another boring city at another boring hotel. Every night blended into one another and he was going out of his mind. Brian was spending the night with Leighanne where AJ and Howie had gone off to meet chicks. Nick had declined the offer to join AJ and Howie. A 'chick' was definitely not what he was looking for. What he was looking for he didn't have to go anywhere to get. What he was looking for was sitting on the couch 5 feet away. What he was looking for had no idea that he was looking for him. "Nicky? What'cha wanna do?" A voice said, penetrating through Nick's thoughts. "I dunno. Chill I guess." Nick looked at Kevin and smiled, happy it was just the two of them. They never hung out anymore. Kevin was always too busy or too annoyed with Nick. But tonight was different. Nick had Kevin all to himself for hours. Kevin had specifically sought Nick out to spend time with him. Alone. Now only if they could do what he REALLY wanted to do. Kevin stared at his younger band mate and wondered if this quality alone time was a wise idea. He had successfully managed to keep his distance this far, but was playing with fire tonight. He was sick and tired of the lies, the secrets, the hidden passion and love. Every time Nick licked his lips, or smiled, Kevin had to fight the urge to just lean over and kiss the living hell out of him. But he couldn't. Nick wasn't gay. Nick was the ultimate American Teen Dream. Straighter than an arrow, not aware of the internal feelings Kevin harbored towards him. Kevin knew he was staring but couldn't help it. They were so close. He could smell the shampoo Nick had used earlier. "Kev? Dude? You okay?" Nick asked breaking Kevin from his thoughts. Nick shifted uncomfortably under the older man's gaze, wondering what was going through Kevin's mind. The look on his face read pure anguish and Nick's heart dropped. This wasn't a good idea. They'd only been watching TV and still Nick had managed to annoy Kevin. Kevin jumped with a start, embarrassed Nick had caught him staring. As he looked at Nick he noticed a look of disappointment and sadness in his eyes and Kevin wondered what was wrong. "Yeah Nicky. Just thinking about something, that's all." "Look Kev. You don't gotta baby sit me. I'm 21. I can handle myself. I'm a big boy now." Nick said softly, a hint of sadness in his voice. At Nick's words Kevin's mind began to wander. "Oh Nicky.. I know you're a big boy. I just wanna find out how big you are.' Kevin blushed as these thoughts ran through his mind. He leaned over and touched Nick's leg. "I know, but I want to be here. I miss spending time with you." His hand tingling at the feel of Nick's leg underneath it. Nick turned to look at Kevin and found himself lost in the deep green of his eyes. He wanted to surrender himself completely to Kevin and when his hand didn't move, Nick's body instantly reacted, his groin tightening, his cock starting to twitch. Before he embarrassed himself, Nick jumped away from Kevin's touch. "I... Uh... Drink... Pop machine.. Want anything?" He knew he was stuttering but couldn't help it. Kevin's touch did that to him, made him lose all control. "Nah man. I'm okay." Kevin's heart sank, knowing he was risking a lot by leaving his hand there too long. Judging by Nick's reaction, there was no chance for the two of them to be anything more than friends. Sighing, Kevin leaned back into the couch and reached for the remote control. Nick took his time going to the pop machine so he could calm himself down. Kevin's hand had felt so good on his thigh and Nick had wanted to reach for it and place it higher so Kevin could feel what he did to him. Could see how hard just sitting near him got him. But Nick was scared, so he ran. When he finally came back into the room he found Kevin watching porn and began to chuckle. "What are you watching Train?" Kevin jumped at Nick's voice. "Just this porn man. It funny shit. Sit down and watch a bit."

		After a while they got bored watching the cheesy, poorly acted porn, so Nick changed the channel. It ended up on a pay per view station with two men kissing passionately, undressing each other. Both men suddenly froze, neither knowing what to do. Each knew that too much reaction would be cause for suspicion so they opted for no reaction at all. "Man. You ever watch this shit before?" Nick asked, hoping his voice didn't betray his nervousness. Kevin laughed. "Nick... You wouldn't believe some of the stuff I've seen. Bunking with AJ, even I'm amazed at the things he's found." Nick laughed, relaxing a bit. Everything was going to be fine. This was Kevin. Just Kevin. He'd known him for forever and they were friends, practically brothers. "Yeah, I'll bet." The two men smiled at each other, their gazes lingering. "Have you ever watched this before?" Kevin asked, curious as to Nick's answer. He hadn't entirely lied to Nick. He had watched gay porn with AJ, but he had enjoyed it. So much that often times he watched it alone, needing something to get off because the girl that he had just sent out of his room wasn't doing anything for him. The girls were always blonde, tall and had clear blue eyes. It was easier to picture Nick that way. It was as though he could substitute the girl for the man he really wanted to be there. But it didn't always help. "You know Brian man. He'd fucking freak if he found this stuff on TV." Nick said, not meeting Kevin's eyes. It was then Kevin noticed something he hadn't seen before. Nick was hard. Now that he actually allowed himself to look at Nick's jeans, he could see the obvious bulge there. Looking up he saw Nick starting intently at the TV, at the men who were now completely naked and performing various acts on one another. Nick's breathing was labored and was unaware of Kevin's eyes on him. Kevin smiled, his heart filling with hope that maybe his situation wasn't as hopeless as he previously thought. Thinking back, he'd realized it had been a while since Nick had dated anyone. Since he'd even seemed interested in a woman at all. At least since he had broken up with his girlfriend Melissa, and even then he hadn't told anyone why they'd broken up. Kevin shifted over so that he was closer to Nick, their legs touching. He waited for Nick to move but he didn't. "That's not what I asked Nick. I asked if you've ever watched before. Gay porn I mean." Kevin's voice was low and throaty, surprising even h imself. Nick's eyes involuntarily fluttered shut at Kevin's voice, at his breath on his neck. He could feel the other man's leg against his and all of a sudden Nick was sinking in desire. With every second passed, he got harder and it was becoming almost painful. He so desperately wanted to be touched, needed to be touched. "Yeah." It came out as a whisper, barely audible. Nick realized what was going on and opened his eyes, looking directly at Kevin and saw a look of lust and desire mirrored in his eyes. Kevin was surprised. He wasn't expecting that answer, and from the evidence in his pants, Nick had enjoyed what he saw. But he wanted to be sure, needed to be sure. "Did you enjoy watching? Do you still?" Kevin moved even closer so that he could whisper directly into Nick's ear, his tongue tracing the lobe. Nick's head rolled back and rested on the back of the couch. He wasn't sure if this was a dream or not but he didn't care. He'd waited so long for this to happen, he wasn't going to complain. Nick hadn't even realized that he forgot to answer Kevin's question. "Nick?" "Yeah?" They were both whispering, afraid if they spoke too loud the spell would be broken. "You okay?" Kevin couldn't help himself and nuzzled his face further into Nick's neck, wanting to smell the sweetness of Nick's skin. Nick groaned when he felt Kevin's lips brush his jaw. "Yeah.. I'm..just..." "Just what?" "Trying to decide if this is a dream or reality. I'm afraid..." Kevin stopped. He was afraid? His stomach dropped. "Afraid of what Nick?" Nick could hear the fear in Kevin's voice and grabbed onto his hand before the older man could move. "I'm afraid that if I open my eyes I'll find out this is just a dream. That you won't be here. That you won't know that you do this to me." At that, Nick placed Kevin's hand directly on Nick's straining erection and moaned at how

		good it finally felt to have Kevin touch him. Nick kept his eyes closed and bit his lower lip, relishing the moment. Kevin's world stopped the second Nick's hand touched his, placing it on his cock. He never would have thought that Nick would be so forward. And now, there they were. Nick leaning back on the couch, legs spread out in front of him, head thrown back on the couch, with Kevin's face in his neck and hand cupping his very large erection. "Kev?" Nick asked, finally opening his eyes and turning to face Kevin, blue eyes meeting green. Both men gasped at the intensity of the gaze. "Yeah Nick." "Touch me... Please." It came out as a moan. "Umm. I sorta am Nick." Kevin said afraid to move. Now that the opportunity had arrived, Kevin was having doubts. He had never really admitted to himself he was gay, Nick being the first man Kevin had ever felt this way about. "More Kev. Touch me..rub me.. Fucking do SOMETHING." Nick growled causing a moan from Kevin. Nick reached his hand up and joined it with Kevin's, guiding his hand up and down his bulge. "Feel what you do to me. You get me this hard. Just you. Only you.' His eyes never left Kevin's. "Nick..." He couldn't get over the fact that this was all happening. Nick was so confident, so comfortable with having him touch him this intimately. Kevin was confused. "Train. It's okay. It'll all be okay. Explore. Do what you feel comfortable doing. Just do something. I'm fucking dying here." Nick smiled at the look of awe on the other man's face. "I want to..." Kevin didn't know what he wanted to do first. "Tell me what you want Kev. What you are thinking right now." Nick pulled Kevin in closer, their mouths barely inches apart. Kevin could feel Nick's breath on his lips and felt himself grow harder with need. "I want to kiss you Nick. To taste every inch of your mouth and suck on your tongue. Make you moan my name." As Kevin admitted what he wanted, Nick did just that. He leaned in and captured Kevin's mouth with his own, gasping at the contact. Wanting to stay in that moment forever. Kevin, unhappy with the slow pace of Nick's kiss, took control and sped things up. He could feel Nick smile against his mouth and realized he had done it on purpose, to see what Kevin would do. Their tongues battled and Kevin relished Nick's sweet taste, wanting so much more. "Kevin...more." Nick moaned needing to breathe. His head was spinning out of control. "What else do you want?" Nick's hand found it's way into the waist band of Kevin's shorts slowly unbuckling the belt and top button. He teased his way around the patch of hair resting there as he kissed and licked his way up Kevin's neck. Kevin moaned as Nick's hand found his cock, gently stroking it. "I want..." He paused and stopped, his entire body going completely rigid. "Nick?" Nick could sense a change in Kevin's movements and he too stopped, worried that he had pushed too far, rushed things. "Yeah Kev?" He hoped to god that he hadn't gone too far, freaked Kevin out. "What's going on here? What are we doing?" Kevin looked directly at Nick and was hit with a million different emotions. He looked at Nick's swollen lips, pink from their kisses, his flushed cheeks indicating the heat they had just shared, the passion in those blue eyes he loved so dearly and realized that he loved Nick more than anyone in the world. Seeing the concern and fear etched on the blonde's face forced him to realize just how much he loved him. "Kev... I don't know how you feel, but I think about you all the time. Sometimes I just can't get you out of my head, my heart." Nick paused to gaze Kevin's reaction and saw surprise there. He had to continue, get it all out. If he didn't tell someone soon, he'd burst. "Kev. You guys always wondered why Melissa and I broke up... It was because... Because of you." "ME?" Kevin gasped. He wondered what Nick was talking about.

		"She knew. She knew how I felt about you. How I still feel about you." Nick reached up and touched Kevin's face, tracing his strong jaw line. "There's something I haven't told anyone. Well only Evan and Melissa." Nick said remembering both conversations. Evan was Nick's best friend since grade one and the first person Nick told. Even then advised Nick to at least tell his girlfriend, he owed her that much. Nick smiled at Kevin, his nervousness apparent. "Kevin.. I'm..." He took a deep breath. "I'm gay. That's all there is to it. And I'm so in love with you.. It's overwhelming. You are all I dream about. You're all I think about. I want you so much." His voice faltered as he blushed and broke eye contact with Kevin. Kevin's heart stopped and he shook his head. The very words he had so desperately needed to hear were just said. "Nick..." His voice was barely a whisper. "How long?" "Have I know I was..am gay? Always I guess. I just never really wanted to admit it." "How long have you wanted me? Been in..." Kevin couldn't even dare to say it. "What Kevin? Been in love with you?" Nick asked caressing Kevin's face, letting him lean into his touch. "Because that's what it is. I've gone too long without telling you. I love you. I'm IN LOVE with you." Kevin released the breath he'd been holding. "Yeah. How long." "Always." Nick smiled as Kevin's eyes closed and a small smile played on his lips. He loved him. Nick loved him. Relief flooded through Kevin and he thought he was going to cry. "I never thought..." "Never thought what? That golden boy Nick Carter was gay? The guy every girl wants to fuck is the guy that wants to fuck their brother?" Nick laughed as Kevin's eyes flew open, filled with shock. "Yeah. It's true. Trust me." He grinned at the stunned look on Kevin's face. Despite his nervousness, Kevin found himself laughing. "No Nicky. That's not what I was thinking." He cupped the younger man's face in his hands and brought it close to his own. "I never thought that you'd feel the same way I feel. Never once imagined that you'd say those words to me and mean them how I wanted you to. I've dreamed so long to hear you tell me you love me." "But...what about all those women? We've never seen you leave the club without some hot chick on your arm." Kevin had to laugh at Nick's comment. "Did you ever notice what those girls always looked like Nick? Who they resembled?" Kevin was met with a blank stare, Nick had no idea. Unable to help himself, loving the adorable look on Nick's face Kevin leaned in and captured Nick's mouth with his own. Regretfully Kevin pulled way from Nick's mouth and rested his forehead on Nick's. "You Nick. They reminded me of you. Always tall, blonde, blue eyes. It was always easier that way. Easier when I could picture you. Pretend it was you I was kissing and touching, you that was moaning my name." Nick laughed causing Kevin to look at him questioningly. "What?" "It's just...all those nights I'd see you leave with those girls and want to gouge their eyes out. Wanted so much to be them, be the one you took back to your room. So many times I'd stand outside your door, just listening and wishing it was me you were making scream like that." Kevin laughed at the absurdity of the situation. "All the while I was in there wishing it was you too." When both men stopped laughing they sat and stared at each other. Nick spoke first. "Kev? There's something I need to know." Kevin smiled. "What? Anything!" "Well. I know I'm gay. But are you sure? Have you ever..." Nick's voice trailed off with his question. It was something he needed to know. "Nick...I just don't know. I mean.. I've never felt this way before. About anyone. These feelings I have for you are like nothing I've known before..." Kevin stopped and looked at Nick with nothing but love in his eyes. "I've never... Never done anything with another guy. This is the first..." Nick sighed, unsure of what to say. "Are you sure about this. Cuz we can't go back if you decided that this was a mistake. That you are just experimenting." "Nick. Listen to me. " Kevin took the younger man's face into his hands and pulled him close. "I have never loved anyone, wanted anyone, NEEDED anyone nearly as much as I do you. If that means I'm gay then fine.

		I'm fucking gay. I don't care what you want to call it. And no. I've never been with another man, never even kissed one, but shit Nick. That doesn't mean anything." He stopped to look into Nick's eyes and saw them teared up. "What?" Nick couldn't believe his ears, couldn't' believe Kevin had just said that to him. "Thank you." Was all he could say. "That means more to me than anything anyone has ever said before." "Have you?" Kevin needed to know. "What? Been with a guy?" Nick felt Kevin's fingers lace with his own and paused before he answered. "Yeah." To say Kevin was stunned would have been an understatement. He wasn't expecting that answer. "Oh." "Umm, yeah. When we were in New York at that club. You left with that girl. Red dress, stiletto heels, almost missed the bus the next morning. I was a little...upset. Met a guy who was really nice and we started talking. He could tell how I felt about you before I even said anything and I knew he would keep it a secret." "What?" Kevin was shocked beyond belief. "He had just broken up with his boyfriend. Found him cheating with someone else...and we both needed someone to talk to. Someone to make us forget everything. Kevin, you have to understand. He gave me the strength to admit to myself who I am. Helped me to see that I should be proud of how I feel about you, not ashamed. Mike is the reason I told Evan...Melissa and now you. I don't regret anything." Kevin put his finger to Nick's lips. "I'm glad. Shhhhh, I'm glad that you had someone so wonderful to help you come to terms with your feelings...your sexuality. Do you still talk to him?" "Yeah. Usually after the bar when I'm upset that you've gone home with someone.. Or just upset that I've wasted another night of not telling you how I feel." "Nick? Show me." Kevin breathed, nuzzling his face into Nick's neck. "Show you what?" Nick's head rolled back as Kevin's tongue trailed up his jaw to his ear. The more Kevin kissed and sucked Nick's skin, the more aroused he got. "How much you love me!" Hearing Kevin's request caused Nick's eyes to shoot open and sit up straight. He faced Kevin, heart beating madly. "Are you sure? Please be sure!" "Anxious much Nicky?" Kevin laughed. "You have no idea bro. NO FUCKING IDEA." "Well then lets go Nick. We've wasted so much time already." Kevin stood up and extended his arms for Nick to stand as well. They walked hand in hand into the adjoining bedroom, both disbelieving that they were finally going to do what they had both separately wanted for so long. Kevin stopped in front of the bed and turned to face Nick. Slowly he undid the buttons to Nick's shirt and pushed it from his chest, off his shoulders. "Nick. Your body is so beautiful. So sexy." Kevin murmured as his fingers danced over Nick's chest, tracing his nipples. Nick could only moan as Kevin explored. "You've been working out Nick!" He said, dipping his head down to kiss where his fingers trailed. "I...needed...something." Nick stuttered as Kevin sucked his collar bone down to his nipple. "To relieve the tension...to get my mind off of how much I wanted you." Nick's hands went to Kevin's T-shirt and slowly pulled it off, gasping at the muscle definition and beauty of his love's body. "How much I've wanted to taste this chest." He leaned down to lap at Kevin's chest, "Kiss these nipples" where he then moved over to place soft kisses over each of Kevin's nipples giggling at the sharp intake of breath from Kevin. "And most of all..." Nick stopped to make sure Kevin was paying attention. "Most of all what Nick?" Kevin's voice was hoarse with need. "I'm glad you asked." Nick chuckled at the look of frustration on Kevin's face. He slowly began to unbutton the older man's pants, unzipping them and letting them drop to the floor. Nick's hand trailed down Kevin's chest, gently tweaking his nipples, tracing the path of hair leading down to his final destination in Kevin's boxers. "I've wanted to see..touch..tasted that nick big cock of yours you keep so well hidden." As Nick's hand found it's prize, he captured Kevin's mouth with his own, seductively thrusting his tongue into Kevin's mouth.

		Nick pulled his mouth away with reluctance and lightly pushed Kevin onto the bed. Laughing, Kevin sat up and moved to the edge of the bed, his legs hanging over the side. "Nicky...come over here." His voice so low it was practically a growl. Nick could feel his erection grow, anticipation nearly killing him. "What baby?" He stood between Kevin's legs, running his fingers through his hair. "It's my turn." That was all Kevin said before he started to undo Nick's jeans, taking his time, making sure to brush against his throbbing erection. Nick whined at Kevin's slow pace. "Hurry..I need you." Before he knew it Kevin had pulled down his jeans as well as his boxers, setting his erection free and Nick moaned at the sensation of the cool hotel air caressing his heat. Kevin was moaning as well, but at the idea that he was literally at eye level with the object of his desires, his fantasies. "Oh Nick...you are so big. So beautiful." He couldn't help but lean into Nick, nuzzling up against his thighs, sucking at his hip. He could smell Nick's arousal, feel against his cheek how hard he was and Kevin just took a moment to take it all in. Nick's cock was tanned like the rest of his body leading Kevin to believe that he must suntan naked. There were no tan lines, and god.. The image of Nick lying on his boat, all sweaty.. And hot... And naked was almost enough to make Kevin cum right there. "Nick..you look so good. I want to taste you." He was kissing everywhere he could reach, Nick's thighs, his stomach, the base of his cock. "Please Kevin. Please.. I wanted you to for so long. Wondered how it would feel for you to suck me." Nick was practically begging, his fingers fisted in Kevin's hair. And before he knew it, Kevin had taken him entirely into his mouth, sucking earnestly, moaning into his cock. "JESUS KEVIN!" Nick yelled, his legs buckling. He never imagined Kevin's mouth would feel this good. Kevin couldn't believe that he was here, with Nick, hearing him call out his name. He always thought that sucking another man's cock would disgust him, but Kevin was amazed. He loved the feel of Nick in his mouth, down his throat. He could feel the blood rushing through the vein on the underside and knowing that Nick's moans were for him was even better. He felt Nick's orgasm building and started to speed up, sucking harder and faster. "Fuck..Kev.. My balls. Play with my balls. Touch them. They're so sensitive." Nick moaned, thrusting forcefully into Kevin's mouth, his hands guiding his head. Giggling, Kevin reached up and took Nick's balls into his hands, amazed at how firm they were, how great they felt in his hands. Kevin firmly rolled them in his hands, tugging slightly causing Nick to lose hold on the little reserve he had. "SHIT KEV.. I'm gonna... FUUCK!!!" Nick screamed as he came down Kevin's throat. Kevin opened his throat and allowed for the steady stream of cum to flow freely down his throat. Not wanting to waste anything, Kevin drank until he felt Nick's body loosen up, his cock fall from his mouth. He sat there with a big smile on his face, enjoying the look of satisfaction plastered on Nick's face. "Damn baby. You are fucking amazing" The younger man mumbled, pulling Kevin into a standing position in front of him. Leaning in he traced his tongue across Kevin's lips, tasting himself and wanting more. He cupped the back of his head and pulled him close, ravishing his lover's mouth, sucking on his tongue, loving the taste of Kevin's mouth and his cum mixed together. "And you've never sucked cock before? Fuck you are definitely a natural. No one, and I stress NO ONE has ever sucked me off like that before. I don't even think I was good my first time." Nick smiled against Kevin's mouth. "Well.. Thanks baby. It's not hard when you taste so good. I can't wait to suck your dick again Nicky." Kevin said stroking Nick's already hardening erection to prove his point. "Oh no Kev. Next time, It's your turn. I wanna know what your cock tastes like. How it feels to have you cum in my mouth, down my throat." Hearing Nick say this caused Kevin to moan against Nick's neck, sucking on the pulse point behind his neck. "What do you want now Nicky?" Kevin asked tracing patterns on Nick's skin. "Well Kev." Nick started, pulling Kevin's boxer shorts down so he could step out of them and kick them aside. "I think there's a little matter that needs to be taken care of." With that he grasped Kevin's cock, stroking it firmly. "Is it hard Kev? Does it hurt?" His voice was low and seductive, giving Kevin goose bumps. "Yes Nick. It hurts so much. I'm so fucking hard..." Kevin grasped Nick's hips and ground his hips into Nick's rubbing their cocks together. Nick let out a throaty laugh. "I'll do more than help you baby. Kev? I want.. I want to feel you inside me. Please.. Make love tome."

		That stopped Kevin immediately. "What? Are you sure?" He was certain that it would have been the other way around. That Nick would have been the one fucking him. Without saying a word Nick climbed onto the bed and lay on his back, pulling his knees up to express his wishes more clearly. Seeing the stunned look on Kevin's face he smiled and began to stroke his hardened cock. "I'm sure. Kev... It feels so fucking good. Being in there.. So tight... So hot... So beautiful. I want this.. I want you. Feel how good it is to be buried so far in someone you can't see straight." Not wasting any time, Kevin crawled up between Nick's legs and leaned down to kiss him. As the kiss broke, Nick reached into the drawer and pulled out the KY Jelly. "Use this... You're pretty big and it'll hurt. It's been a while for me." "Nick.. I don't want to hurt you." Kevin expressed, worrying about the damage that he might do. "Oh Kev. It hurts.. But it feels so good. Like nothing you've ever felt before." Kevin coated Nick's anus with the jelly not forgetting to put a generous amount on his cock. Wanting to prepare Nick, he slowly inserted one then two fingers in, gasping at how tight Nick was, how much he was enjoying it. He moved his fingers around, lightly grazing Nick's prostate causing his hips to buck off the bed. "KEV! THAT'S IT!! FUCK.. RIGHT THERE" Liking Nick's reaction, Kevin stroked that spot a bit harder, amazed at the effects it had on the younger man. "Enough baby. Just fuck me please." Nick was about to cum but was trying to hold on. He wanted to wait so they could cum together." Kevin placed himself at Nick's entrance, more nervous than he had ever been before. Nick, sensing his hesitation reached up and stroked Kevin's face. "Baby.. It's okay. I love you. It'll be okay. Just do what feels good." Kevin smiled and began to push into the younger man, gasping at how good it felt. He pushed in inch by inch trying to go slow to give Nick time to adjust to his size. The slowness of his entrance also provided Kevin time to get used to being enclosed so tightly in Nick's body. He was afraid if he moved too quickly he would cum instantly and it would all be over. After a few minutes of stop and go pushing, Nick could feel Kevin's balls against his ass and knew the older man was in completely. "Baby...how does it feel?" He asked seeing Kevin's eyes were shut tightly and he was biting his lower lip. "Nicky...you feel so good... You're so hot and tight. Better than anything I could have imagined." Kevin breathed trying to hold onto the little resolve he had. "Look at me baby...I want to see your beautiful eyes." Nick reached up and caressed Kevin's face, bringing his mouth down for a soft kiss. When Kevin opened his eyes he gasped at the look of love mixed with passion on Nick's face. He reached up and took Nick's hands in his own, lacing their fingers together and placing them over Nick's head, providing Kevin with the leverage he needed to continue on with their lovemaking. In this position, Nick's chest was stretched slightly giving his muscles more definition and Kevin leaned down to place kisses all over Nick's neck and chest. "You are so beautiful Nicky. So sexy..." "So yours Kev." Nick moaned at the feel of Kevin buried deeply inside of him, while his tongue was tracing patterns on his chest. "What?" Kev asked not understanding Nick's comment. "I'm yours Kevin. I've always been yours, I just was too afraid to tell you. You can have me anytime you want. The second we met I knew that I was yours and yours alone. I just didn't know if you wanted me." The honesty and innocence in Nick's voice sent shivers through Kevin's entire body. "Make me yours completely Kev. Please..." Kevin leaned down and kissed Nick passionately, ravaging his mouth with his tongue. Finally he couldn't take any more of being inside of Nick and not moving so he gently began to rock against his lover, pulling out almost completely only to thrust back in entirely. Nick's legs were firmly wrapped around Kevin's waist, locked at the ankles, his back arched slightly in pleasure and Kevin didn't think he had ever seen Nick look more beautiful, more attractive. Green eyes were firmly locked on blue, no words needed to express the multitude of emotions that were passing between the two men. After a short period of time with Kevin making slow love to Nick, Nick began to get impatient. "Kev...harder...please. I need it. This slowness is killing me..." He was moaning from the sexual tension that was building. "Nicky.. I don't know if I can..." Kevin moaned worried that he'd hurt him. "Don't worry baby... It's okay... You won't hurt me... I just need you to fuck me hard and fast... Please...." Nick

		leaned up and kissed Kevin urgently. Kevin realized he still had Nick's hands pinned up above their heads and he let go, allowing for Nick to wrap his hands around Kevin's waist, cupping his ass, kneading his cheeks, helping him thrust in faster and harder. "That's it Kevy... You feel so good... So hard...." Nick was moaning loudly at this point and got an idea. He reached in between them and grabbed ahold of his own painfully hard cock and stroked it a few times glad when he saw the pre-cum gather on the large purplish head. Running his fingers across the tip and collecting the pre-cum, he reached back around and began to lightly rim Kevin's puckered hole, feeling the older man jump at the new sensation. "Shhh.... Kev.. Don't worry. Just relax. I'm gonna make you feel so good." Nick breathed as Kevin still thrust in and out of him frantically. He had long forgotten his anxiety over hurting Nick and was now fucking him fast and hard, just like Nick had pleaded. And without another word, Nick gently inserted the tip of his finger into Kevin's ass causing him to cry out in a mixture of pain and pleasure. "NICK" Kevin cried out as the beginning of his orgasm started to wash over him. He had never been touched so intimately before and never thought it would feel so good. "Oh Kev!" Nick groaned. Kevin was so tight and hot against his finger and he knew that he finally got to make love to Kevin, he wouldn't be able to last long. Since Kevin was a virgin in this respect, he would be tighter than anything Nick had ever experienced. He pushed his finger in all the way to his knuckle, giggling at the look of pure ecstasy on his lover's face. Rotating his finger he grazed Kevin's prostate and as a result Kevin spasmed, thrusting harder into Nick. "FUCK NICK... What was that? That felt so fucking good..." Kevin's eyes bulged out and he focused on Nick's eyes that were sparkling with amusement. "That baby..is heaven. Right there..." Nick reached up and kissed Kevin again moaning. "I'm gonna cum Nicky... Fuck...I'm gonna cum." Kevin was breathing hard and sweat was pouring off of him, mixing with Nick's. "Baby... Help me cum with you.. I want us to cum together." Nick said careful not to move his finger too much. He didn't want Kevin cumming too early. Reaching down between them, Kevin grasped a hold of Nick's erection and began to jerk him off in time with his thrusts. After a only a few tugs, he could see that Nick was almost ready. It wouldn't take much for either man to climax at this point. "Are you ready baby? Can you feel it?" Nick asked looking up at Kevin with nothing but love in his eyes. "Yeah Nick... Let it go... Cum with me." As he said this, Nick added another finger inside of Kevin and stroked his prostate firmly. Unable to hold onto his orgasm any longer, Kevin came with a howl, emptying himself inside of Nick which caused him to pull forcefully on the blonde's cock triggering his orgasm. As Nick screamed louder than he had ever screamed in his life, he shot stream after stream of hot cum onto both his own and Kevin's chest. Finally, Kevin's whole body shut down and he collapsed on his lover's chest, cock limp and withdrawing from Nick's body. Both men groaned from the loss, no longer connected, now two separate people. So as not to crush him, Kevin moved slightly so that he was only half lying on Nick's body, his head resting on Nick's chest, listening to his heart beating erratically. Nick reached down onto the floor and grabbed onto a tee shirt, cleaning up the mess on both his own and Kevin's chest before fully laying back and pulling the older man into a tight warm embrace. He leaned down and gently kissed the top of Kevin's head, running his fingers through the long almost black hair on his lovers head. Neither man said anything, for words there were no words to accurately express what they were feeling at that moment. It wasn't until Nick could feel Kevin shaking that he realized something might be wrong. "Kev? What's wrong baby?" Nick lifted Kevin's face so that he could look into those green eyes he always found himself getting lost in. It was then he saw the tears and his heart dropped into his stomach. Nick's mind began to run a mile a minute with fears and doubts. What if Kevin regretted all this. What if he was sorry for what they'd done. What if... "I love you so much Nicky." Was all Kevin said through his tears. "I love you too baby. Why the tears?" Nick pulled Kevin's face up to his own and placed a soft kiss on his mouth for reassurance. "It's just never been like that before. I mean...fuck Nick. I was inside your body, we were together...one person..." Kevin knew he was rambling but what they had just done was overwhelming him. The multitude of emotions that he was bombarded with at that moment were overwhelming.

		Nick saw Kevin's tear filled eyes look deeply into his own and he smiled, caressing Kevin's face tenderly. "I know baby. It's amazing. To be that close to someone you love so much. You want to just get so far inside of them that you get lost in them. It's more than physical..it's emotional..spiritual... It's the most beautiful feeling in the entire world. All you can feel is that person surrounding you and you know that that is what God intended. This is what God meant when he created Heaven. It's not a physical place but more of a level of happiness. It's that exact second when your heart is so full and you know that there is nothing else that could ever compare to what you are feeling at that exact second. That's what that was, this is. Being here right now with you." Kevin had stopped crying and was listening to Nick speak. He had never heard Nick speak with such passion, such heart and he fell in love with him all over again. "How did you get so smart Nicky?" He asked with obvious awe. "From you Kev. Everything I've learned I've gotten from you. From your strength, your wisdom, just you. My life is for you baby. You are my reason for getting up in the morning, for doing each interview, each show, everything is for you. I love you so much Kev." "Nick.. I love you too." He reached up and fit his mouth perfectly over Nick's, smiling at the younger man's reaction on his leg. He could feel Nick getting hard again and he giggled causing Nick to giggle. "What can I say bro...you tend to do that to me." Nick motioned to the tent that was forming in the sheets. "Already? Damn Nicky...you'd think you'd be tired after all that." Kevin moaned reaching in to stroke Nick playfully. Nick groaned and stopped Kevin's hand. "Baby...please don't do that. I just want to lie here with you in my arms. That's enough for me right now. I'm too tired to go another round with you." He giggled at the shocked look on Kevin's face and winked. Kissing the spot on Kevin's neck he knew that drove him crazy. Kevin shifted so that they were lying face to face, body to body. Arms and legs tangled, faces inches apart. "What now?" He asked, softly kissing Nick's forehead. "Now?" Nick thought about it for a little while before answering. "Now we sleep." "I meant about us. What do we do now about us?" He wasn't sure if he was ready to come out to everyone with their relationship. "As I was saying, now we sleep and we worry about everything as it comes. Tomorrow's another day. Don't worry about it until it gets here. Just enjoy what we have right now Kev." Nick turned so that his back was to Kevin's chest and they were spooning. He pulled Kevin's arm so that it was firmly wrapped around his waist and their legs were tangled together. They were sandwiched so close together that it was hard to see where one ended and the other began. Nick could feel Kevin tense up just slightly and he turned his head so that he could look him in the eye. Noticing a look of apprehension in his green eyes, Nick smiled and kissed Kevin reassuringly. "It's okay Kevin. It's going to be okay. I'm not going anywhere. I'll still be here in the morning." Nick knew exactly what Kevin was going through, for he had experienced the same fears and anxieties months before after he had first admitted who he was and slept with Mike. He wanted Kevin to know that he wasn't going to just fuck him and leave. It wasn't about that. It was about more, about love. He turned back around and snuggled further into Kevin's embrace, feeling him physically relax, his whole body loosening up. Kevin smiled and buried his face into the crook of Nick's neck, enjoying being there in the man he loved's bed, knowing that that man loved him too.